You Saved Me Once Book 1

Chapter 39: 23It was Late when

We’re are parked on a dirt road, outside of town. We could see Ver-sa, from this hill, it was on the

valley to another town. It was just Hayes and I, and occasional passing cars, that’d spit rocks at us.

Hayes stopped at a gas station and brought snacks before we came up here. The view was enough to

feed me though.

The dirt road was in front of a hill that leads into, a forest. I’ve never seen this place before, it’s

beautiful.

The stars were bright, but Hayes uses his car as a flashlight. The blue from the dark sky, set the mood.

I felt so nostalgic, that I couldn’t feel anything but that. The green from the trees in the distance, smells

fresh, feels cool but not ice cold, and they smell free. The trees are gi-ants compared to anything in the

distance, taller than the hill behind us. They are comforting.

Things like this. Things like this, is what make life, perfect. No mat-ter what’s going on, if you stop a

moment, and think. You’ll realize, life is fucking great, even the shitty parts. Life is life.

“Thanks for bringing me here.” I say to Hayes.

We’re both sitting on his roof, eating trail mix.

“Yeah. I knew you’d like it.” He’s quiet after that.

There’s natural silence, but but just looking at Hayes, and feel-ing this way. I wanted to hear his voice

again.

“How did you find this.” I ask.

“When I got back. My mom.” He stops. I look at him, he looks sad.

I’m scared

Ms. Kristen is a sensitive topic for many reasons. I was now overthinking this entire night. Did his mom

say something, tell him a secret? Does he know about everything? Is that why we are here?

“When I got back, she was pretty messed up Alex. She said some stuff to me, treated me like shit.” His

voice is raspy again. He keeps clearing it.

“Why?” I ask.

“I think, when I first got back, she was scared of me.” He says.

“I think she thought, that I was someone else.” I can feel his sadness.

“That’s why she called the cops on me, you know? She thought I was him. Too drunk to even see me,

for me. Saw me through him. I wish she’d get better.” He says.

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conversation, secrets would soon come out. There would be no turning back.

“Hayes.” He touches my hand. Our shoes tap each other’s.

“After she called the cops. When I got out, I was going to leave Ver-sa again.” He says.

I lean into him, our shoulders are touching, we feel each other’s warmth.

“I got this far.” He smiles.

I stay silent. I watch his eyes, I enjoy his voice.

“I couldn’t leave again.” He says.

“I promised you.” I lean off of him. I can’t get anything else out, but his name. He grabs trail mix from

my hands.

“Why?” I ask.

My throat is raw, I want to cry. I want to hug him, I want to, hold him.

“You’re my best friend Alex”

I hear the trail mix break down in his mouth. I watch his clenched jaw.

“I want to see Timmy soon.” He says.

“I’ll go with you.” I say.

“I kind of want to see him alone.” His voice is soft.

After a long silence, Hayes stretches, tries to lighten the mood. He smiles.

“I need a drink.” He says.

“Let’s go get one.” I say.

“No, I’m driving.” He says.

“I’ll drive. I stopped drinking.” I say.

“Me too.” He says.

“Trying. I’m trying to stop drinking. I’m not supposed to drink an-yways. It fucks up my liver.” He says.

“Why, what’s wrong with your liver?” I turn to him.

“Nothing, don’t worry about , Little Richards.” He doesn’t look at me.

“Good for you.” I nudge him.

“It makes me act like a fucking dick.” He laughs.

“Yes, it does!” laugh.

“We’re pretty fucked up, huh?” Hayes laughs. I nod, laughing with him.

More cars pass, I can hear crickets when the cars, get far enough away.

I slide off of the car, Hayes comes down after. We lean on the hood of his car, close to each other.

“Hayes. Why did you come back to Versa?” I ask. He doesn’t re-spond.

I nudge him, and he forces a smile. This makes me nervous.

“Come on, you stayed for me. Why did you come back in the first place?” I ask.

I want to smile, but I want to smile, but Hayes looks sad again.

“Hayes.” I nudge him.

He bites down hard, on his lip. He looks like he is about to cry.

I get butterflies in my stomach, because Hayes’s silent. He’s acting weird. Does he know a secret?

He clenches his jaw again. I reach my shaking hands and move his wild hair from his face.

“I’m sorry.” I say.

We’re close. Our bare skin is touching one another’s. I want to hug him, but I’m scared.

I’m so fucking scared right now.

“Can I give you a hug?” I’m crying.

Hayes hasn’t started crying yet, but knowing he wants to, makes me cry.

“Why are you crying?” He laughs. I laugh and cover my face.

“I’m sad, for both of us.” My voice is muffled by my sleeve.

He grabs my hands and pulls me into him. I hug his warm body.

I could feel his breath. I could feel his warm body against mine. We haven’t been this close, in years.

We haven’t hugged, in years.

We sway back and forth, and Hayes rubs my back. I stop crying.

“Better?” He asks.

We’re both looking at each other, our faces are close. I should let go now. I should let go, but I don’t

want to. I want to hold him forever.

“Hayes.” I lean in more as I call his name.

I can’t stop. Hayes won’t say anything, and I can’t stop.

My lips meet his, for a split second. All it took was a second.

In that split second, I fucked everything up.