The Hidden Gold Mine Heiress Divorcee

Chapter 381

Chapter 381 Open Your Heart

“Absolutely not!” Boris was taken aback by her response and hastily explained, “How could I ever see you as a mere vessel for reproduction? How could I…”

“Why wouldn’t you?” Ziana growled lowly. “You sc*mbag!”

“No! I didn’t mean that!” Boris felt anxious, and his thoughts became muddled. He hated the fact that he couldn’t make himself clear no matter what.

Seeing Ziana getting ready to leave the bed in her agitation, he quickly composed himself and carefully chose his words. “Think about it. If I saw you as a reproductive machine, then I would forcefully take the child from you. But what did I do? I let you leave with the child. Please calm down and listen to me.”

Ziana paused, her voice trembling. “If you don’t like me, then why did you make me pregnant?”

“Who said I don’t like you?” Boris looked into her eyes with utmost sincerity and said, “I like you.”

His expression was earnest, and his tone resolute, which left Ziana feeling even more perplexed.

But she quickly gathered herself and said, “You like me? What about Vivi? Don’t you like her? She saved your life, and you’ve been together for so many years…”

“She’s not my savior,” Boris interrupted her, “She deceived me.”

Ziana was taken aback. “Deceived you?”

“Yes. Five years ago, when the Lewis family had an accident, I woke up, and she was by my side.”

“That means she saved you, right?” Ziana scoffed.

Boris smiled bitterly. “Yes, that’s what I thought too. That’s what she said at the time, and I regarded her as my savior. I asked her how I could repay her, and she said she wanted to be my girlfriend. So, we got together, but I never truly liked her. I never did. I only felt gratitude towards her as someone who saved my life.

“But that gratitude gradually dwindled. I realized that she was different from the woman I dreamt of when I was unconscious. It was a strange feeling… It was hard to explain. Yet, I still fulfilled her every request.

“She wanted something, and I gave it to her. Later, she wanted to marry me to become the matriarch of the Lewis family. At that time, I thought all women were the same, and it didn’t matter whom I married. Since she wanted it, I gave it to her without much thought.”

Ziana sneered.

Boris glanced at her and said, “But then you suddenly appeared, and you changed everything. The moment I saw you, I felt something different. When you said you wanted to stay, I was happy. When we went to register our marriage, I was happy. I felt like I was becoming someone strange, but I let those emotions flourish.

“I started to feel truly alive because of your presence. I enjoyed chatting with you on WhatsApp. I rarely used my phone before and disliked the back-and-forth messaging. But one day, I realized that while I was working, I was distracted, eagerly waiting for your messages.

“I was happy when your message arrived, and I was angry when it didn’t.

“When you came home, you were always there, talking to me. I was happy about that, but unfortunately, I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t want to talk too much with you. because I always felt guilty when I was with you. So, I forced myself not to show you any kindness.”

Ziana listened as if she were hearing a story, except that she was one of the main characters.

Ziana pondered for a moment and softly asked, “Why?”

“Because your presence made me betray my promise to my savior,” Boris looked at her and pressed his lips together, saying, “If you hadn’t appeared, I would have married her out of gratitude, just like my parents did. It wouldn’t have been a love-filled marriage, but she and I could have had children and numbly lived out our lives.”

“You came into my dull and peaceful life like an enchanting spirit. You made me greedy, vibrant, and fulfilled. You gave me so many emotions, transforming me into someone I no longer recognized. Deep down, I enjoyed it. However, the debt of gratitude was like a shackle, suffocating me.

“Whenever I’m with you and feel pleasure, I’m reminded of how you turned me into a faithless person.

Ziana’s lips trembled slightly. “But how can you blame me?”

“Of course, I don’t blame you. I didn’t want to blame myself, so I shifted the blame onto you. I was weak and evasive at that time, unwilling to face my desires. I convinced myself that you were the one tempting me, but deep down, I knew I consented to it all. Since the moment you asked me if you should stay, I indulged myself and silently allowed myself to make mistakes. I didn’t dare admit my feelings until that email.

“I feared someone lurking in the shadows, targeting you. I made the decisive choice to protect you over Vivi, forsaking my fidelity. So what if it meant betraying trust? As long as you were alive, you were more important than anything else. But I didn’t want to let go completely, so I manipulated the situation by getting you pregnant, hoping that having a child between us would make it impossible to sever our ties.”

Ziana listened to this lengthy explanation, finding it unbelievable and absurd.

She gritted her teeth. “You truly are shameless!”

“I never liked Vivi, not before and not now. Later, I found out she wasn’t the one who saved me. She deceived me. All that remains for her is disgust.”

If it weren’t for her lies, he wouldn’t have endured such agony in his marriage with Ziana.

He wouldn’t have suffered m*ntal torment, nor would he have directed his anger and blame at Ziana.

They would have gradually developed feelings for each other, and with her personality, they would have lived a fulfilling life together.

But alas, there were no ifs…

“So now, I’m only using her as a means to gather information about Sean’s plans. It’s all just an act with her, not love.”

Boris looked at her and spoke sincerely once again, “It’s you that I love, Ziana. That’s the reason we’re getting a divorce. I pushed you away to protect you. Can you… Can you forgive me?”

He awaited her response. His nervousness was evident even in his breaths.

“I can’t.”

She replied calmly, “You keep saying that you forced me to divorce for my own good, but did you ever ask for my opinion? You didn’t. You were arrogant and selfish, making me pregnant for your own sake, thinking it would make it easier for you to control me so that I would obediently return to your side! From beginning to end, you never treated me as the woman you loved but as your possession. You never considered my feelings.”

Ziana’s tone was mocking and cold. “Who would want that kind of love? Who would want such domineering, self-centered love?”

“I…” Boris was at a loss for words.

Ziana’s emotions grew increasingly agitated. “Love is about equality and mutual respect. Do you truly see me as an equal? Have you shown me respect? You claim to love me, yet how have you treated me over the past three years? You have ignored me, treated me coldly, mocked me, always wearing a stern and harsh expression!

“You may have your reasons, your internal struggle, not wanting to be an unfaithful person, but how is that my concern? It’s all your fault! I had no idea about your relationship with Vivi. I was an innocent person who knew nothing!

“It was your deception that kept me by your side. Why do you shift the blame onto me for your mistakes? Why do you take your anger out on me and give me such a cold shoulder? Did I make you fall in love with me? Did I make you unfaithful? No, everything was your own choice! You couldn’t control your own heart, fell in love with me, and yet lacked the courage to admit it. Ultimately, it’s because you don’t understand how to handle emotions, you lack the ability to do so, and that’s why everything has become a mess! NôvelDrama.Org owns all content.

“You simply don’t comprehend love. You don’t know how to love. Those things you believe have touched me with your supposed acts of love moved you. That’s not the kind of love I désire.” She let out a weary sigh and pleaded. “Your love has only brought me pain. I won’t repeat the same mistakes. Please, let me go.”