The Accidental Wife (Emily and Julian)

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I'm not blind. I can tell that something is different about Rosie. The barbecue was five days ago and ever since that day, something has changed about her. To be exact, something has changed about the way she sees Everest. The way she looks at him scares me, look at your

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Rosie may be confused now, but I'm scared of Everest. I know that he likes Rosie and he may take advantage of her state. Everybody knows that Rosie and I are not on the best terms. It's not like we're fighting and cannot stand each other's presence, but anybody can tell that we're not the same anymore. Nothing has changed about the way I feel about her. She is the love of my life and I'm ready to do anything if it's going to make her happy. When we first started dating, I thought that I was in a dream. Now, I'm sure that it was all a dream and the, thing I hate the most is how it has turned into a nightmare.

When it comes to Rosie, I'm certain that she doesn't love me anymore. It is very painful to even think about that, but maybe may tell me that we cannot I need to face the truth. I can't just continue living in denial. I need to consider that one day, she be together anymore. I have a strong feeling that she is already thinking about that, but she probably cannot make up her mind now.

"How's it going, man?" Knox asks as he takes a seat beside me. We're at a pub. I called him yesterday and told him I needed to talk to him. I need to vent to anyone and Knox is a good listener.

"Terrible," I mutter, taking a gulp from the drink in front of me. I'm thankful that I'm twenty-one. Maybe alcohol can silence the raging thoughts in my mind. &

"It's not getting better with Rosie?" he asks and I slowly shake my head. "She's been talking to Everest and I'm petrified, Knox. I don't want to lose her. I can't lose her. Not after what we've been through."

"I know how scary it is, but I'm sure that this is all temporary. She's going to remember you, Silas. Just give her time," my best friend tries to make me feel better, but it is so hard to overlook all of what has been going on lately.

"What if she doesn't remember anything, Knox? What am I supposed to do?" I quietly ask. I want to slam my head against a

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"Make her fall in love with you again. You did it once. You can do it again." He places his hand on my shoulder. "Take her on dates. Act like you have never dated. Maybe she needs to live it all again from the beginning to understand the depth of your feelings for her."

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I weigh his words in my head. Maybe he is right. Maybe I should start all over again. I don't mind making an effort for her. Hell, I would move mountains for her.

"Everest isn't going to back down easily this time." I sigh, twirling the liquid in the glass I'm holding.

"That's fine. You won her before when he was around. You can do it again," my friend insists. "Tell you what? Message her now and tell her you'd like to take her on a date tomorrow."

I stay silent for a couple of seconds before eventually nodding. I can begin again from the start line. I can take her on dates and charm her just like before.

I shoot her a message, asking her if she's free tomorrow. I haven't seen her in two days and it's not because I have been busy, but I was trying to see if she was ever going to ask me to spend some time with her. Unfortunately, that didn't happen, and I hate to think that she was enjoying the distance. It doesn't take her long to reply and luckily, she tells me that she doesn't have any plans. I quickly text her again, suggesting taking her on a date. I make sure to mention that this is a date. I'm tired of acting like I'm nothing but her best friend when she is the one I love with every piece of my heart.

Her reply is fast, and it takes me a minute to bring myself to look at it. When I do so, I breathe in relief, I admit, disappointment filled me because her reply is rather cold, but I will take what I can get. Her 'Okay! What should I wear? is

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nothing compared to 'Lean't wait for our date' or 'I would love for you to take me on a date' but maybe we can reach this stage again later.

"I need something that would make her over the moon," I say, looking at Knox.

"Think about something she would like to do," he tells me.

I take a deep breath as I rub my forehead. I need something that would make her look at me differently. Something that might make her see me more than a friend.

I know how much Rosie loves to move around, but her fractured ankle is hindering her movement. She still has a week left to remove the cast, so I'm aware that my options are limited.

One thing I know about Rosie is that she loves the beach. She adores it, so maybe I can take her on a date at the beach.

"Knox, I didn't drink a lot, but I think that it's not a good choice if I drive. Can you drive me?" My friend agrees in a heartbeat, and we make our way to his car. I have a lot of things I need to do.

I know that I could have made our date in a few days, but I'm petrified and desperate. I'm afraid of losing her and as time passes, I can't help but feel that losing her is inevitable.

I can't bring myself to accept that losing her can be an option. So, I'm going to do everything within my power to win her

life. back. I'm going to do everything I can do to make her realize that she is the love of my

I know that Rosie is my end-game and so long as there's a door that she is keeping open for me, I won't spare any effort until she is mine again.

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