Sold to my crush

“Are you done feeling me up”, Alex remarked cockily. I quickly peeled myself from him as i tried to regain posture. “I, uhm…, I’m… I’m sorry, i didn’t mean to do that, not that i was actually doing that, but I’m sorry regardless, and … uhm, that’s my cue to shut up”. God i was so embarrassed, i couldn’t even hold a single conversation without stuttering like a fool. Not like i have any issue speaking. I only stutter when I’m nervous or scared and this guy makes me feel so many things at once. How could he ever possibly like me after this. Perhaps a shark swallowing me isn’t such a bad idea, that way i wouldn’t have to experience such mortifying moments.

“It’s alright baby, i actually don’t mind having your hands all over me”, he responds with a teasing smile.

I simple stared at him, words seemed to have failed me. My cheeks couldn’t have gotten any redder.

“Hey Alex, are you attending the party at the bar?” . The universe seemed to have had compassion on me and sent help as one of Alex’s friends, Martin as i gathered called out to him.

Martin and Alex are very close friends, or that is what the rest of the school assumes because they’re almost together everytime and only ever seen with each other. Aside from the numerous girls that flock around them like annoying insects.

Martin is tall boy but Alex is bit taller than he is, with blonde locs that frame his face, hazel eyes that seem to always pierce into souls whenever he stares. He was undoubtedly handsome but not as beautiful as Alex. I should probably stop comparing every boy i see to Alex.

“Yeah, sure”, Alex replied, never shifting his gaze from me.

“Everyone is already heading there, we should go now” martin tells Alex as he looks at me questioningly as though wondering what Alex would be doing with me.

I ignored his stares and tried to look everywhere but the beautiful men infront of me. “Yeah, let’s go”, Alex replies, giving me once over before walking away with Alex.

Watching them walk away, i feel my heart settling into a defined rythm. Yep, they should have called the ambulance earlier.

As i got to the front of my house. I stood there for while, preparing myself to step into the house. My dad had earlier informed me that he couldn’t picked me up as he went to pick my siblings from the airport. I was not an only child, i was infact the last child of my parents. Most people think that this position in the family comes with alot of luxury, maybe it does to others, but some of us have it the other way.

I have two siblings, a brother and a sister.

Chase, my brother is the first child of my parents. His dark curly hair are the only features he got from my mum. It’s best to say he is truly my father’s son as he looks so much like him.

Rena, my sister the most beautiful daughter of my parents as everyone says. She has got blue, bright eyes like my dad, long blonde hair that reaches below her waist and a body to die for. She was skinny in a all the right places. Her boobs were small and perky and she has an attractively thin and well-shaped body. Rena’s studying to be surgeon. Talk about beauty and brains that’s Rena. Everyone loves Rena, she is the perfect daughter. I wouldn’t lie that I’m not jealous of her, of all the attention she gets and how everyone easily loves her. I want that for myself too.

I inhaled a final breathe of fresh peace before i stepped into the house. “Hey princess, come dinner is served”. My dad says.

I quietly walked to the table with my head low, trying to ignore everyone else at the table. I took a seat at the far end, far away from everyone.

“So you’re just going to sit there, goble down food like a glutton and ignore our presence”, Chase sighs “typical Lily, i wouldn’t put it past you”. He spits out, i can feel his eyes on me gauging my reaction.

“He.. Hello, welcome home”. I said without looking up from my plate. I continued picking at my food as i did not have an appetite.

“As always stuttering like a foolish little girl”, chase barked out, seemingly to become angrier from my lack of reaction to his earlier statement.

“You shouldn’t speak to your sister that way”, my dad said clearly annoyed by chase’s behaviour but that has never stopped chase.

As always Rena just sat ignoring everything that’s going on around her, like her younger sister isn’t being bullied right infront of her. Not that I’m surprised by her behaviour.

“It was her last day today in Bricks High, the least we could do celebrate with her and not make rude comments like that”. My dad had stopped eating at this point as he glared at chase.

That did not stop Chase at all. “It doesn’t matter if it was her last day in Harvard, she wouldn’t amount to anything because little Lily here is just a dumb, silly, attention seeking bitch”. That was the last stray, i ran out of the dinning hall into room as i could no longer hold back the tears, ignoring chase yelling at me to come back.

I got into my room, locked the door and allowed the tears to flow freely. I couldn’t cry infront of them, i can’t let them know how much their words affect me.

All my life, i have always tried to do everything right, be the perfect sister and daughter. Just do they could see me, even if it was a for a minute. Feel their love or be accepted. But i guess I’m not good enough and I’d never be in their eyes.

Every single time my family treats me this way, i stay up all night crying and wondering what i had done wrong. I guess my only mistake was being born.

It all started after my mum’s death. My siblings blinded by their grief had always blamed me for my mother’s death, not that i even saw my mother take her last breath. I was away on a school trip when i heard of the news.

Perhaps this was what i thought was the reason. Just something to make me feel better so i know that they have a reason for hating for me. Not that they just treat me badly for no reason.

I couldn’t wait to go far away from here and college was the only way out. I want to be a writer someday, whether it be books or poetry. But my family says that it’s not a real profession so I’ll study to become a Lawyer since that’s what they want. At least i get to leave this place, I’ll take whatever i can get.

After a while of wallowing in self pity, i received a notification on my phone. I reluctantly checked it out as i did not feel like talking to anyone or doing anything. Tiffany had sent a text asking I’m still at home.

Lily: Yes, i amProperty of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

Tiffany: i hope you’re dressed then Lily: dressed for what?

Tiffany: The party silly, you better be ready when i get there.

Lily: I can’t go the party, my siblings are at home and now so they won’t let me go Tiffany: Just get dressed, I’ll be there in 10 minutes

“Urghhh”, i groaned into my pillow. I don’t want to go anywhere, i wished she would just forget about me entirely and go on her own.

“I don’t even know what I’m supposed to wear to the party”, This is the part i hate most about leaving my house, aside leaving my house in general.

As i stood infront of my wardrobe, contemplating what outfit would fit best. I remembered Alex mentioning that he would be at the party. With that thought in mind, i was more determined to attend the party. Maybe i could get lucky?, well who knows.