Chapter 30: The hurtful Past
Flashback:
At the Mason Condominiums
Portia’s P. O. V:
I am greeted nicely by the staff of Sherlock’s Condominium as they already know me as always going here for Sherlock. “You look so beautiful today young bride.” A lady in her middle age greeted me. She is Sherlock’s neighbor that we got close to. “Thank you so much. Madam, I hope you have a great day ahead.” I bowed at her and made my way to Sherlock’s pad.
As I reached his floor there is something in me that made me feel nervous. I don’t why but it feels weird, maybe I’m just having anxiety. Or maybe wedding sickness is striking me again. It’s only one week before the wedding so I think this is natural. I carefully held the food I bought for him and the cake to celebrate his promotion. Such blessings are coming to us since we finally decided to get married. I am so lucky to have Sherlock as he is hard-working and the one helping me in everything.
Sherlock gave everything to me. He made me see the beauty of the world again. He helps me get through trauma and he is the one who made me strong. I can’t imagine life without him. I enter the password to his unit and enter quietly. The place is a little messy. What happened? Sherlock rarely messes his things but what’s with this?
I go straight to the kitchen and put down the food in the kitchen. I saw the dishes and glass of wine in the sink. Maybe his cousin has already arrived gladly I bought enough food. After putting my bag and the food in the kitchen I went to his room to wake him up. His door is a little open. Oh, maybe my Sherlock is tired that he forgets to close his door. Sherlock is always careful with his things and very cautious about locks and kinds of stuff.
Especially when he met me, he really makes sure that I always lock my doors and makes sure that I always get extra careful when I am alone in my apartment. I carefully didn’t make any noise to surprise him. But as soon as I take a peek at him, it seems like he is the one who surprised me.
I saw him hugging and kissing someone so sweetly and they are naked in the bed. My hands are shaking and my body is trembling in shock. I couldn’t explain what I am feeling all I knew was my heart is clenching and it was painful. The girl then pushed her into bed and sit on top of him. I saw her face clearly and that made me dizzy. What on earth is Irene doing here?
“I told you I can do things your fiancée can’t,” Irene said and started grinding her body against him which made Sherlock groan. They started to be steamy and the war of last begin no one dares to lose or win. Even the exchange of words they throw at each other shames me. Their sinful kisses are marking each other’s bodies like territory. Seems like Irene forgot who owns her land.
My body is full of pain as my heart is telling each of my organs to feel hurt. I hate myself for watching such a sinful scene but my feet are glued and my eyes can’t resist telling me the truth that I am betrayed and cheated on. Once again Irene cheated on me from winning in life. Sherlock is so into her that I only see Irene when I look into his eyes. It hurt I didn’t know how to explain the situation but all I know is I was hurt.
As soon as I can feel both of them reaching heaven my ears started to close and my feet are not glued anymore. My brain starts to get tired and had enough. My heart doesn’t want to listen anymore I have to go. I walked away…Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.
I grabbed the food I bought and leave quietly. When I got out of the condominium, I walked in fast and didn’t even bother to turn around to check if he saw me and reached for me. All I know was I need to go because it hurts me.
Now I know why he’s getting cold. Now I know why he’s always busy. Now I know why he doesn’t smile the same way as before. You took him away from me Irene. Why? You got father and now you got the only person who pulled me out from the mess you made. How dare you? How can you do this to me when you don’t have a crown without me?
I stop in the middle of somewhere and finally I got the courage to cry. I hate him. I hate how he can cheat on me with my half-sister. Do they know? Did they intend to hurt me like this? Why? I cried and cried myself until I feel tired until I run dry. This will be the last time I’ll hurt myself like this. I won’t cry over you, Sherlock. After this, the last you will ever see me cry over you will be this day.
Now I know why people always tell me you are only deceiving me. Now I know why I don’t deserve you.
End of flashback…
Portia’s P. O. V:
“So you are the one who broke up with him?” Erwin said while preparing hot chocolate for us. “Yes, Because I knew Irene she won’t just stop. So I let her win.” I said remembering the times when I feel defeated. But that won’t happen now. I won’t be affected by her anymore.
“You did a great job, Portia. You know it will hurt you but you’ll get over it soon.” Erwin said and mess around my hair. “Don’t cry about him anymore. He’s not worth your time.” Erin smiled. How could this man be so handsome when he smiles even when he doesn’t smile more often? “Thank you for listening to my rants Erin. That feels better now.” I sincerely told him.
“I’ll be always just around the corner. You can call me anytime. Tell me when it feels not okay anymore. I’ll listen.” Erin makes everything feels easy. “You are such a nice friend Erin,” I commented and hug him. He hugs me too and it feels suddenly comfortable and safe. “Take a rest, Portia.” He said and pats my back.
“You too. By the way, if it’s getting late. You sure you can still drive home?” I asked him worriedly. “Yes, I can. Plus you should be resting now.” Erin said and mess my hair again. “I’ll be going now lock your doors and take care, Portia.” Erin excused himself.
“I will. You too take care, Erin.” I said and Erin grabs his coat already and I accompanied him outside. “Take care, Erin. Thanks for the night.” I said and waved at him. “Anytime. Thanks for the night also. Take care, Portia.” He said and bid goodbye to me. He drives off and I watched him leave. I get inside the house and lock all the windows and doors.
My shoulders feel light now. It seems like Erin lifted all the pain I’m in. I headed to my room and as soon as I collapse on my bed my body feels tired and my eyes got heavy. I’m sleepy.
I fell asleep and I walk up in the middle of the night as I felt that someone is tapping at my window. Is that Levi? Why at this rate? I opened my eyes and go straight to my window but when I was about to open the window I saw a man in a bunny mask. Oh! No. This can’t be my mom already saved me from him. He’s long gone. Why is he here now? How did he finds out where I am?
I freaked out and I panicked I started to run as I saw him banging hard on my window. And when I tripped I realized. He’s long gone I’m just dreaming. I need to wake up from my nightmare.
I run when I saw him behind me. I hide and forced myself to wake up. I felt a heavy shake on my body and it woke me up. I saw Airi and her beautiful worried eyes. “What happened? Why are you here?” I asked her. “E? Remember? You call me and you said you are laying in your bed. But while we are talking you are not responding so I panicked and go straight here.” Airi explains to me.
I was just dreaming all this time. I checked my phone and saw missed calls from Airi and Erin. I saw messages from Erin and he’s worried so I replied. “I’m sorry to worry you Airi.” I apologized to her but she just hug me. “I’m glad you are okay.” Airi sobs.
I patted her back. “It’s okay.”