Scarred Luna

Xander’s POV

I flipped through the pages of the documents in front of me and it still didn’t make any sense. I tried peering at it even more, but a frustrated groan slid past my lips at my failed attempt. I’d been on the same page for the past thirty minutes now, and still, I couldn’t bring myself to concentrate.

What the fuck was wrong with me today?

Deep down, I knew what was wrong, I really did. I was in denial but I refused to admit it.

I allowed my eyes to roam over the document again.

In the space of an hour, I had divided all the papers embedded in it, into different sections, and by different sections, I basically meant just scattering the papers all around my table. I was tired. I needed to clear my head.

It seemed like such an easy task, and it usually is, until she popped up. No matter how hard I tried, she always had a way of showing up in my mind, her huge grin and shy smiles, she managed to torture each and every part of my soul.

I knew I had wronged her, but why did she keep popping up on my head to torture me. It was just too much.

A loud thud filled the room, cutting me off in the middle of my inner monologue. I scanned my room for a little while, and I realized where the loud noise had come from.

It was my mug, my favorite mug to be precise. I wasn’t sure how, but somehow it had managed to roll off the table and land straight up, without so much as a scratch by its sides. A small smile made its way to my lips as I reached to pick it up. Weirdly impressive.

“Xander.” I froze at the sound of my name.

“Are you in there?” her voice asked.

I ran a hand over my face at my mother calling out to me. She was the last person I wanted to see right now, especially with everything going on.

Don’t get me wrong, I loved the woman, but if there was one thing I didn’t particularly like, it was her acceptance of the word no. She just didn’t want to hear it, and if I told her I didn’t want to speak with or see her, she wouldn’t even let me.

“Xander I know you’re in there.” Her voice from the other side of the bedroom door pulled me out of my thoughts again.

“Come on, it’s me, your mother.” she said and I almost rolled my eyes.

“I know.” I muttered underneath my breath, just so she couldn’t hear me. Did she think I didn’t know her voice?

“That’s why I don’t want you to come in here at all.” I whispered again.

“Xander?” I kept quiet. Maybe if I stayed like this and pretended not to be in here, she would take the hint and leave.

“Xander, I know you can hear me.” she said.

Seconds rolled into minutes before silence settled in the air. My ears perked up immediately, trying to pick up on if she was still there or not. After what seemed like forever without any more noises, I relaxed, but apparently, I did that way too soon.

“Xander!” She yelled as barged into my room.

I groaned in frustration. Shit, I could have sworn I locked the door.

I rolled my eyes as she shut the door behind her, before coming to stand in front of me.

“You were in here all along.” she said like it wasn’t already obvious.

“Yes mum.” I nodded once.

“You had no reason to barge in like that” I said.

“I am your mother.” She retorted before taking a seat on my bed.

“I can come in whenever I want to.” she said, making herself comfortable.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

My lips parted to say something, but I pressed them shut again. If I so much as said something now, the tendency that it would escalate was somewhat high.

“Dear,” She called out to me again. A couple of minutes had passed, and her tone was softer now.

“Are you okay? You haven’t been coming to breakfast for days now.” she said.

I almost scoffed.

“I’m fine.” I shook my head.

“These days, I get up way past breakfast.” I said.

Liar, a voice screamed in my head. I barely slept these days if I was being honest.

“That’s not a valid reason.” she shook her head.

“If there’s something wrong, you do know you can tell me right? I asked Sabrina and she-” she started to talk but I tuned out her voice at the mention of that name.

A frown made its way to my lips, but it was replaced by an emotion almost immediately. Fear.

Memories of my last encounter with Sabrina rushed at me. I had blurted out that Kieran was my mate, and since it wasn’t news that Sabrina didn’t really like her, I had no idea what she would do next.

Had she somehow told my mother about it?

I glanced back at my mother. She was still speaking, so I took that as a sign that Sabrina hadn’t told her yet. A tiny part of me couldn’t help but feel like, if mother knew Kieran was my mate, she just might not stomach it well.

“Are you listening to me?” Her question was all it took to pull me back to reality.

“Xander.” she called again.

“I’m listening.” I nodded again.

“I’m fine. I just need to be alone for a little while.” I said, in an attempt to wrap this up.

“No, these are signs of depression.” she said and I bit back the urge to scoff.

“Or maybe you just think you are depressed. I promise, once you have a steamy bowl of your favorite meal for breakfast, you’d be fine. Forget this nonsense and come with me.” she said and I almost screamed.

“You don’t understand-” I said.

“Then make me understand.” She cut me off. “I’m not leaving until you do.” she said.

“I don’t understand.” I raised an eyebrow. “What’s that supposed to mean?” I asked.

“I’m going to sit here.” She patted the spot next to her continuously.

“And keep on asking you what’s wrong. I’m worried and until you give me an answer, I’m not leaving. You must come to breakfast.” she demanded and I clenched my jaw.

“Mom-”

“Xander.” She cut me off.

“It’s time for breakfast.” she said.

I bit back a groan. She often complained that I was stubborn and didn’t like to budge, but I could bet my life that she never sat down to consider where I might have gotten it from. Right now, I wasn’t even sure who was more stubborn between us.

I resisted the urge to cuss underneath my breath.

“Fine.” I got out of bed reluctantly.

“You win. Now, let’s go.” I said.

I could almost swear I heard her squeal, and I couldn’t help the small smile that made its way to my lips.

We went downstairs, but when I got to the dining’s entrance, I stopped.

There, Sabrina sat, gently and quietly munching on her meal. As she ate, I watched her closely. What was she doing here? Judging by how much of a fast eater she was, she should have been done by now.

“Look who finally decided to join us.” Mom announced, before breezing into the dining room and taking her seat. The moment Sabrina raised her head, I felt a chill run down my spine, and not in a good way. I didn’t think I would ever see the day that she’ll scare me.

“I told you all he needed was a little convincing.” my mom said, victory clearly in her voice.

Convincing? More like forcing me.

“Yes, mother.” Sabrina smiled, her eyes still on me.

It was creepy and even as I headed towards my seat, I couldn’t shake off her gaze on me.

“I never doubted you for a minute.” she said.

“Come on, now that we’re all here, let’s eat.” she said.

The rest of breakfast was somewhat quiet, save for the loud clanks of our utensils against our plates. Sabrina kept staring at me but that wasn’t even the creepy part. The fact that she had a smug smile on her face just didn’t sit right with me either.

“Mother?” Sabrina suddenly called and my ears perked.

“I kind of have something to tell you. Well, it’s more of a question actually, and I would like your opinion on it.” she said and I stiffened.

“Of course.” Mum nodded.

“What is it?” she asked.

“What do you think should be the ideal status of a mate?” Sabrina asked and I gripped the end of my fork hard, the cold metal pushing up into my skin immediately.

“I mean, does their family background matter, you know, all of that stuff.” she said and I swallowed.

She knew what game she was playing. I resisted the urge to let my wolf loose and break her limb from limb. I never thought I would see the day that I would feel this way towards Sabrina.

“I’m surprised you’re asking that.” My gaze drifted to my mother.

“Of course it’s important.” she said.

“So what would you do if Xander’s mate were a commoner?” Sabrina asked.

My grip on the fork tightened as I shot Sabrina a glare, but she paid me no mind as she continued.

“Like, a total nobody.” she added. And. i could just feel the anger brimming just beneath my skin. How dare she?

What the hell was she trying to do? She knew how mum felt about Kieran, and this was the best she could come up with? It was low. Even for her.

“You should already know the answer to that dear.” Mum said with a small smile.

“She will definitely be rejected” she said and I clenched my jaw. No one told me what to do. And besides, Kieran was not a nobody.

“Even Xander knows this” my mom said.

“I’m not sure.” Sabrina was quick to jump into the conversation again.

“Did you know this Xander?” she threw the question at me.

I said nothing. I stayed quiet. What was I supposed to say? There was no way I could agree or decline.

Somehow, this entire thing felt like a setup. No matter which side I chose, I wasn’t sure there was going to be a soft landing for me.

Sabrina was definitely up to something. She was playing games with me.

How dare she?