Chapter 23
Chapter 23
***Ava's Pov***
'Now where were we before you stuttered your words out trying to explain to your parents that you
hadn't even had sex? ' I questioned them teasingly.
'That was embarrassing to say the least. ' Bryson expressed his thoughts.
'Damn! they made me sweat bullets. ' Ray exclaimed.
'But atleast you know they are okay with your relationship. ' I added.
I was a bit relieved after they explained that they hadn't really had penetrative sex yet.
'Ava, I know it has been years but it never goes well for me every time I try having sex. ' Bryson added.
He had his head hung, did he regret telling me about what that monster did to him?
Or was he ashamed of something else, something he hadn't told me.
'Hey, look at me. ' I stood up between his legs, holding his chin up to look at me.
'Don't be ashamed of yourself Bryson, you were confused, hurt and afraid. You were just a kid and
there's nothing you could have done.
You are really strong, I appreciate you telling me all that and trusting me. I can't say I know how it feels
to be sexually assaulted, but I totally understand your pain.
It doesn't make you any less of a man, it doesn't change my feelings for you and Ray.
It actually makes me want to treat you right and show you that I'm nothing like that witch. '
He finally let a lone tear fall. This was actually hard for him, his eyes showed it all.
He was hurting, he had relived those moments while he was telling me the whole story. I was proud of
him for recapping what he went through.
I wiped that single tear with my right thumb, swearing to myself that I was going to make him happy.
Ray had been surprisingly quiet, he respected and trusted Bry to speak for himself.
'Wait, you said that you've never had penetrative sex with Ray, right? ' I asked Bryson.
'Yes'. He answered.
'You also said that it never goes well for you when you try having sex, do you mean to say that you've
n...'.
'Yes I've never had sex with anyone. ' Bry cut me off, obviously knowing what my question would be.
'What!' It's the only word I could utter. I mean, I had seen him countless times with different girls. So
what was he trying to say now.
'As unbelievable as it sounds it's true. He has never had sex before, only kissing and touching. '
'But how, I don't get it. ' I expressed my confusion.
'Ava, there's something you should know. ' Bryson looked at me.
'People think that we share girls, like you know during sex and stuff, you seem to think that too.
But it's actually not true, to some extend maybe, but Ray is the one that usually fucks them.
I only touch and kiss, and I never let a girl cum. You the only girl I've ever drove to the peak.
'Ava I...uhh.' He was trying to get the words out, but he was stuttering.
I couldn't help but wonder what was making him hesitant with his words.
Was it worse than what that monster did to him?
'I need to know if something else is the matter Bry, you know I'm not judging. ' I just wanted to make
him comfortable.
'I uuuh I have erectile problems Ava. ' there, he finally said it. He couldn't even look at me.
But I didn't quite believe him, I mean we had humped the other day till we orgasmed.
He had been fucking hard that day, so how could it be that now he claimed to have erectile problems?
I was trying to wrap my head around what he had told me, there had to be more to it.
'Indeed there is, my sex drive is low when I'm around other women and girls.
But it's different with you and Ray. It has always been different Ava.
After that witch was finally out of my life I withdrew from everyone and everything except Ray.
There was always this sense of belonging I felt whenever he was around.
I was ashamed of myself, I just felt like I was worthless. But Ray always made sure to remind me and
show me how important I was.
We spend a lot of time together. My therapist had recommended Ray to be always around me at all
times.
She had told my dad that some rape victims usually became suicidal. With Ray with me at all times, it
would be hard for me to try anything funny.
She knew I trusted Ray, he's the only person I allowed body contact with. What she didn't know is that I
was developing abnormal feelings for Ray.
I started noticing things that I shouldn't have even attempted to think about.
His lips mostly, I would stare at them and wonder how they'd taste like or feel against mine.
I tried fighting it, the crazy feeling. I didn't want it Ava, of course I knew it was wrong.
It made me even hate myself more than I already did. I tried putting some distance between us but he
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He had figured it out somehow, according to him, I wasn't keen on hiding my feelings for him. He said
that the looks I'd send his way were too obvious.
He didn't like it one bit but he also didn't want to see me getting lost in my poisonous thoughts.
He didn't want me going through his rejection at all. He feared it would be my undoing. I mean, I had
already gone through the hands of that evil woman.
Ray was disgusted by it all, that's for sure but he was willing to try it out for me.
So it just started with tight hugs, pecks and later on kisses and hand jobs.
Next thing I knew Ray had convinced me to try bringing girls in. That's when I realised that I had a
problem getting aroused.
I kinda accepted the fact that I'd never get turned on by anyone else apart from him. But then you came
along.
I couldn't understand why I was getting turned on easily by just looking at you.
I mean it never happened with all those other girls, not even one of them. I was mad and angry at you.
You reminded me of her yet you brought my sexual feelings out. Ava, you made me feel like a man.
All those things I said to you, I never meant any of them. Me of all the people know that you are not
slutty or those other names I called you.
I just took out my seething anger on you, I didn't know what to do with my feelings for you except hurt
you.
I'm so sorry, I really I'm not good with apologies but please..'
' No don't apologize again, I told you that all is forgiven.
I'm not learned like you people but I know after rape most people change.
I know that it's not your fault Bry, I'm just happy that I understand the reason why you've been making
my life a living hell.
Rape victims go through different stuff. Each person reacts differently and I totally understand you
Bryson. '
'Thank you Ava, you too Ray. ' He spoke, turning to look at his brother.
'Guys, can we at least eat something before you continue talking. I swear I'm starving and I know you
haven't had anything to eat since yesterday. '
The last part was addressed to me and he was right. My body was weak at this point, my lips were
chapped too.
' Tell you what, I'll prepare something for us. Just relax here and let me serve you. ' Ray was already
springing into action, but I wasn't going to let him do my job.
'No, it's my job Ray. I can't let you do that. ' Renata would surely not like this.
'Yes she would hate to find you cooking when she said not to. Oh you said that aloud. ' I really needed
to stop thinking aloud.
'Ava, you had what mum said on the phone. She said that you are part of our family now and that from
now on you're not the maid. ' Ray reminded me.
She really meant it when she told me to call her mum. She was making me feel like her daughter at the
moment.
Was the new house help the visitor she was talking about when we talked on the phone the other day?
Was this the second chance of me being a part of a loving family?