Chapter 54: Ansel’s feelings 2
“So let me be straightforward, Ansel.” Nika suddenly turned serious. “I’m asking you this; please answer honestly to my question.”
“What is it? Say it,” Ansel replied anxiously, urging Nika to continue.
“Do you have feelings for Erica?” Nika’s voice was firm and decisive. Of course, Nika’s seriousness was clearly expressed.
“What are you saying?” Ansel naturally reacted, involuntarily exclaiming before falling into a state of confusion. “Me and Erica…”
The matter that Nika just mentioned unexpectedly turned out to be something that Ansel found incredibly difficult to address.
The issue that Nika just raised happened to be something that Ansel was finding extremely difficult to address. Honestly, Ansel had considered brushing off this dilemma. However, Nika unexpectedly brought it up again, throwing Ansel’s mind into chaos. What should Ansel do now?
“Answer my question exactly,” Nika demanded sternly. “Think carefully before giving an answer. I want an honest answer, not evasive or subjective.”
Faced with Nika’s firm demeanor, Ansel had no choice but to comply with Nika’s request. Therefore, Ansel took some time to contemplate the question.
Ansel found himself pondering Nika’s insinuation. Did it hold any truth? Did he truly love Erica? Similar to Erica, Ansel did not have an immediate answer. He acknowledged that he harbored peculiar emotions towards Erica, emotions that he had never experienced with Desi. However, Ansel wasn’t certain if it could be labeled “love or not.
“Nika, I don’t know.” Finally, without making Nika wait any longer, Ansel spoke up, his voice full of introspection. “It’s just that I never felt so new and special when I was with Desi, like when I was with Erica.”
“You’re uncertain about your feelings for someone?” Nika, akin to a doctor, quickly discerned Ansel’s significant issue. “You can’t differentiate between the feeling of love and a feeling resembling love?”
“It seems that way,” Ansel vaguely replied. One part of Ansel believed that Nika was right, while another part, driven by logic, wanted to deny it.
“You can’t differentiate what your feelings for Erica are, right?” Nika asked, and Ansel nodded.
“You also don’t know what your feelings for Desi are.” Nika continued to inquire.
“What are you talking about? I really don’t understand.” Ansel looked at Nika confusedly, hoping a clear explanation would help him untangle his thoughts and feelings.
Observing Ansel’s puzzled expression, Nika couldn’t hide her disappointed sigh. It appears that Ansel isn’t particularly smart when it comes to matters of the heart. Nika knew that Ansel accepted Desi as his girlfriend and entered into a relationship with her partly because their families were close friends. Additionally, Desi was a girl Ansel had known and been close to since childhood. As time went by and they spent more time together, Ansel believed that Desi played a significant role in his life. He did have special feelings for Desi, but it wasn’t the kind of love a young man would have for a girl. Ansel was simply misinterpreting his feelings for Desi and mistakenly believing them to be love. That’s why Nika came to such a conclusion because he had observed and witnessed the development of the relationship between Ansel and Desi. Both of them don’t look like a couple in love. Although Ansel treats Desi very well, Nika has the feeling that there is nothing special about her. Ansel’s behavior towards Desi is similar to how he treats his relatives, like family.
But with Erica, it’s different. It seems that Ansel has a very special concern for Erica. When he’s with Erica, Nika can see how happy and joyful Ansel looks. With her keen observation skills, Nika confidently states that the arrow of love has struck Ansel and Erica. It’s just that Ansel, being oblivious, didn’t realize it early on. As for Erica, due to her own insecurities, she decided to ignore and avoid them.
Nika, being an outsider, had the desire to help her friend, and that’s why he decided to have this conversation. The truth is that Nika could assist Ansel in clarifying his feelings and expressing what his heart wants to say. However, upon reflection, Nika realizes that it might not be the right thing to do. It’s better to let Ansel find the answers for himself. After all, it’s Ansel’s heart, not Nika’s. Furthermore, according to Nika, the best way to help Ansel is to provide suggestions, allowing him to discover the answers on his own rather than directly stating the issue.
“It’s nothing important. Don’t worry about it,” Nika said, closing her train of thought. Subtly dispelling any doubts, he gently reminded Ansel: “I just wanted to remind you that Desi is your girlfriend. She is the one you have chosen to be in a relationship with, even though there may not be any romantic feelings involved. But that doesn’t give you the right to take actions that might hurt Desi.”
“I understand,” Ansel replied.
“And don’t hurt Erica either,” Nika added emphatically. “Remember what I said.”
“I know,” Ansel replied emphatically. If Nika didn’t want to continue on this topic, Ansel wouldn’t have dug deeper to find out. Maybe it would be better that way. Ansel was contemplating vague thoughts that only he knew, and Ansel had no intention of sharing them with Nika.
The conversation comes to an end as Ansel and Nika agree on a plan of temporary inaction, spreading false information to deceive their enemies.
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The next day, it was reported that Ansel had been discharged from the hospital upon his own request rather than with the approval of his treating physician. Prior to making the announcement about Ansel’s condition, Nika asked the doctor to cooperate to fool everyone.
“Are you ready, Ansel?” Nika appeared at the door, asking eagerly.
At this moment, Ansel was sitting on the bed, next to the packed bag. Ansel didn’t seem to want to leave. As if guessing Ansel’s mind, Nika teased as she approached Ansel.
“Are you expecting Erica’s arrival?”
“No, not really. Don’t say random things,” Ansel immediately denied. He tried not to reveal his true thoughts to Nika. But it was too late; Nika had known all along. The truth was that Ansel was looking forward to meeting Erica. But she was nowhere to be seen. Ansel was feeling sad and disappointed.
“If it’s not, why does your face look so gloomy? Today, you’re being discharged from the hospital; you should be happy,” Nika continued to tease, making Ansel even more irritated.
“Shut up!” Ansel snapped angrily. “It’s my business, and whether I’m happy or not is up to me. If you don’t speak up, no one will think you’re dumb.”NôvelDrama.Org copyrighted © content.
Despite Ansel’s denial and opposition, Nika calmly continued:
“So you’re waiting for Desi to come and pick you up?” Nika shifted the topic, still intent on teasing Ansel.
Aware of Nika’s intentions, Ansel decided to remain silent and ignore her. He didn’t want to be provoked by Nika’s anger.
“I don’t know if Desi is coming to pick you up or not. But as for Erica, I know she didn’t come to the hospital today.” Nika casually remarked, regardless of whether Ansel was listening or not.
“Erica didn’t come. That’s really sad. I really wanted to see Erica. I bet you also want to talk to Erica before leaving the hospital, right?”
“Why are you telling me that?” Ansel snapped, annoyed. “And can you please stop? Be quiet for a while; you won’t die.”
“Today, Erica is taking an important exam,” Nika continued, ignoring Ansel’s irritated expression and question. “I believe Erica will do well in the exam and achieve the highest score.”
At Nika’s reminder, Ansel suddenly remembered that Erica had mentioned her exam schedule. It turned out to be today. Ansel felt guilty for forgetting. Ansel should have wished Erica good luck yesterday. Unfortunately, after Desi left, Ansel didn’t have a chance to see Erica anymore.
“That’s natural.” Ansel insists: “She’s very smart,”
It was strange how just the thought of Erica made Ansel happy, and he felt a rush of excitement in his heart. Unconsciously, his joy manifested on his face, and it was not difficult for Nika to notice. Once again, Nika smirked, her smile full of hidden implications.
Ansel remained oblivious to Nika’s gaze. What’s worse, he didn’t even realize his own natural and innocent expression. It was exactly as Nika had observed-Ansel was quite naive when it came to matters of love.