Chapter 68 I’ll let this feeling go
Jane confused replied:
“Sorry lady, I was too careless. Let me wipe it for you.”
Doris pushed Jane’s hand away from her and shouted:
“I don’t need, don’t touch a servant’s dirty hand on me.”
Jane tried to hold back her tears and bowed her head in apology:
“Sorry. I really didn’t mean to. Then let me take you to change your clothes and wash them again.”
Doris snorted lightly ignoring Jane, she turned to Brian and whined:
“Brian, you should chase her away. She really makes me feel uncomfortable.”
Brian pretended to indulge Doris, he graciously said:
“She apologized to you and wanted to wash your clothes again. What more can I ask for?”
Doris continued cooing with Brian:
“I don’t like that. I want you to change clothes and dry the place for me.”
Brian smiled lightly and pretended to answer:
“Okay, you came to visit me today, so I’ll pamper you.”
As soon as he finished speaking, he suddenly hugged Doris’ body as she sat on top of him, he placed a few kisses on her lips and neck that made Doris light up with joy. He really wanted to see how Jane reacted to his provocation just now. Jane saw Brian kiss another girl, she felt a little hopeless and a little dazed. Because she didn’t know what this feeling was and where it came from. Jane lowered her face, collected the things that had fallen on the floor, and quietly retreated. She had just worked, her tears had flowed from her own eyes ever since, Jane tried to suppress her emotions now and held back her tears. She worked quickly and surreptitiously wiped the tears from her cheeks. Either way, let the two of them have their own space, she was about to leave when Brian stopped her. He reprimanded:
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Jane bowed her head and replied:
“I feel a little tired, would you mind letting me rest early.”
Before Brian could answer, Doris interrupted and said:
“That’s good then. Go quickly so Brian and I can have our own private sweet spaces.”
He tacitly agreed and didn’t say anything more, just flashed a provocative smile at Jane, she understood and retreated. She quickly left that place because her broken heart couldn’t take it anymore. Jane ran as fast as she could to her room and burst into tears, she lay on the bed and buried her face in the pillow and cried. Jane didn’t know why her heart hurt so much, like someone wanted to tear it into a hundred pieces. She didn’t want it to come and torment her like it was now. She had to think of other things and stop her mind from remembering that image, saying to herself:
“Brian had his lover, what am I to him. I’m nobody, I’m just a servant he picked up to raise and torture. Don’t think too much and be sad, Jane. I just leave everything, one day I’ll get out of here and all this suffering will be over.”
Jane continued to cry profusely for her condition, she sat sad for a while and did not stop thinking, she encouraged her will:
“He’s busy with other people right now, so this is a good chance for me to escape. I want to leave this place as quickly as possible. Be strong, Jane, don’t give up.”
Jane quietly brought some money, she walked quickly down the corridor to the warehouse, then walked a short distance to the previously locked fenced area that Jane had been captured by Brian once.
But when she arrived at the warehouse, she met Ramha who was taking some flour to make cakes, Ramha saw Jane and was very happy because she would have more helpers. She tried to avoid Ramha and used the excuse that she needed to get a few bottles of brewed wine from the barn and bring it to Brian. Unfortunately, when Jane smoothly left, suddenly the butler Allen came to Ramha to urge the cake, he called Jane back, he was surprised to see Jane here and asked:
“Jane, where are you going?”
Jane awkwardly replied:
“Ah, I took a few bottles of wine.”
Butler Allen glanced at Jane observing, he asked again:
“Master Brian asked you to take it?”
Jane smiled and nodded, butler Allen said mildly:
“Master Brian was busy talking to Lady Doris, they told me I needed some space, I don’t think it’s really necessary for you to get alcohol. Actually now, I need someone to help Ramha. You don’t mind helping her, do you?”
Allen’s cold gaze, Jane knew that he knew her intention to escape, so he tried to keep her and cleverly informed her. Jane was helpless to obey, she silently sighed and did as Allen ordered.
Jane helps Ramha grind the dough, she skillfully measures each pound of dough and separates them so that Ramha can easily knead them and shape them to put in the oven. She tried her best to forget the heavy sadness she was carrying in her heart, no matter how sad and desperate she was now, Jane couldn’t cry, because she didn’t want to cry in front of other people and even more did not want who knows what her thoughts and feelings are thinking. So Jane will hold back and try to hide this feeling, let it pass as quickly as she is running away from this place.
Meanwhile, Brian and Doris are in love in his room, when he can’t stand her flirting, wants to end the current play he’s created, he returns to his nonchalant attitude before. Brian coldly turned his face away when Doris tilted her face to kiss him:
“Enough, stop it Doris.”
Doris is annoyed when Brian rejects her:
“Why is that, dear? Don’t you want to continue having fun with me?”
Brian grumpily replied:
“I’m bored, I’m not in the mood anymore, please come back.”
Doris ignored Brian’s words, she moved closer, hugged Brian’s waist, she exposed her enlarged breasts and was about to place a kiss on his lips when Brian promptly stopped him. He dodged and pushed her away, he used his hand to pull Doris up, shouting:
“I said enough. Didn’t you hear me? Shameless woman…
Doris looked at Brian’s resolute attitude, she was confused and coaxed:
“Brian, did I do something wrong? Why are you cold to me?”
Brian carelessly replied:
“I’m tired, go home. Don’t come bothering me anymore.”
He called to his servant Piper, who was standing outside the door:
“Piper, see her off.”
Piper bowed her head in obedience, and motioned for Lady Doris to come out. Doris snorted angrily and pushed her hair away from the place. As she walked away, she complained that Brian had treated her so badly. Brian waited for Piper and Doris to leave, he quickly moved to find Jane. He met the butler Allen in the hallway, and also heard what he said about Jane, who kept Jane with Ramha in the kitchen. Brian received the news, he immediately went to the kitchen to meet Jane.
When he reached the kitchen, he saw Jane alone, perhaps Ramha was busy bringing bread to Mr. Wibul’s room, so he left her busy here alone. Brian slowly walked over in a wheelchair, and she was taking care of the cakes so she didn’t notice him. Brian suddenly asked:
“I heard Allen tell it all. Do you want to run away again?”
Jane suppressing her sadness inside, she replied nonchalantly:
“I don’t understand what you’re saying. As you can see, I’m busy with my work.”
Jane was decorating some cakes, he reached over and grabbed her arm and asked:
“You are avoiding me and my questions again. You’re in the middle of serving with Piper, why are you blatantly leaving that place without my permission?”
Jane angrily replied:
“Since I see you needing some privacy with your mistress, a servant has given thought to his master. I allow myself to act like that. Why don’t you thank me?”
Brian laughed sarcastically, he inquired:
“So it looks like I’m blaming my good servant. I have to thank you, don’t I?”
Jane nodded and turned her face away, Brian pulled her hand back causing her to spill the decor on the ground, he let her sit on his lap and forcefully kissed her. Jane strongly resisted, she stood up and slapped him on the cheek, scolding:
“Bastard, you kissed the wrong person. The one I need is Lady Doris now, go to her and make love to her now. Leave me alone for now.”
Jane wiped her lipstick off her lips and the tears on her cheeks had been flowing ever since, she turned to run away from that place, when she went out the door, Jane met Ramha’s face, she was silent and said nothing, ran away. Ramha came in and saw Brian, she was a little surprised but still said nothing. Brian wiped Jane’s lipstick from his mouth and felt a little sad inside. He instructed Ramha before leaving:
“Ramha, watch her carefully.”
Ramha politely replied:
“Yes, sir.”
Brian was a little bored, he suddenly remembered Gideon and Felix, he went to their pool party. At that place, the party space was bustling with underwater pool parties, girls dressed in sexy swimsuits and cool drinks. On the lake, Gideon and Felix turned on lively music, they swayed and danced with beer and alcoholic drinks in hand.
Brian moved to a spot near the pool and found a seat for himself, he ordered some beer and sat down to drink alone. Gideon and Felix discovered Brian’s appearance, the two of them approached and asked:
“I think you will come tonight. And why do you look so gloomy, are you okay?”
Brian drank some wine, replied:
“Don’t worry, you guys can just have fun. I want to sit here alone.”
Felix saw Brian’s boredom, he whispered quietly to Gideon:
“I think he’s getting bored, do you think I should call some girls over to serve him?”
Gideon shook his head and grimaced.
“I’m afraid that’s not a good idea. He said in advance not to disturb him. With that in mind, I think it’s better to let him drink alone.”
Felix looked at Brian thoughtfully, he also nodded in agreement with Gideon’s opinion. He approached Brian and asked:
“Are you okay being alone?”
Brian waved his hand to shoo them away, he really wanted to be alone right now. Gideon and Felix understood, the two of them had to ignore him and leave. They asked a servant to inform the butler Allen, which was the best that Gideon and Felix could do for now.
Brian drank a lot of alcohol and forgot about the time, soon it was already dark, the party was even more exciting with sexy dances on the pool, Gideon and Felix were holding hands with beautiful girls but forgot Brian had been drunk ever since, as he continued to order more wine and toss empty bottles into the pool.
When he could no longer drink, he motioned to his butler Allen nearby and led him back to his room. Jane is now sitting on the balcony to cool off, it’s been a long time since she let her mind rest like this, when all this time she has lived in the circle created by Brian and whirled around with a servant’s job.
She looked at the cloudy sky and suddenly remembered the cold nights walking on the beach, she remembered Pearl even more. Because it’s been a long time, Jane hasn’t visited her, even though she has a nurse to take care of her and ask about her health every day. She thought of her mother and burst into tears, her sick mother.
And she remembered her eighteenth birthday, when she sat by the bedside and blew out the candles with Pearl. She used her weary strength to tell Jane all the truths she needed to know. It turns out that Pearl is not the real mother she thought she was, she had picked Jane up inside a crate underneath a cargo ship while working.
When Pearl saw Jane, inside she yearned to be a mother because of her unfortunate fate of not being able to get pregnant and have a baby as her own. Pearl confessed her feelings to Jane that night, at that time she was selfish like this and did not return Jane to the police. Because she thought she could manage and raise Jane on her own, but god wouldn’t allow it. She had to go through a serious illness and was reluctant to give Jane to Mr. Harvet to raise.
About Jane’s biological parents, she also did not know who they were and why they had heartlessly abandoned her. She also did not know any information left by her parents, perhaps they did not want her to find them again or for some reason they had to abandon her and leave. She doesn’t know, what she knows about her true identity is an incomplete number, Jane only knows Pearl is her adoptive mother and she grew up on this small fishing village with unhappy memories of the Harvet family adopt her.
Then Jane remembered Wendy, the poor, kind girl who sacrificed herself to bring her freedom. Jane burst into tears once again thinking about unhappy Wendy, when she was beaten and forced by Demut to serve dirty men in a bar. Jane originally intended to get out and come back to save Wendy, but unfortunately, she fell into another predicament. She was grabbed by Brian and restrained her, imprisoning her in the very large mansion he lived in.
Jane is sad thinking about her fate and Wendy, poor girls with pain and hurt all over. She didn’t know what to do besides crying, she had wanted to escape from this place many times but all was not favorable, it’s too hard to run away .
After she was tired of crying, she had to go back to her room to sleep, just like that, starting a long and tiring day tomorrow. Meanwhile, Brian was lying on the bed with his mind blurred, unable to move his body, it seemed that he had drunk too much, the bottles of wine he had drunk, they filled up his tired body.
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