Love’n’Lust

Belle returned with a new glass. Setting it on the table, she joined him on the sofa but gave him some safe distance.

“Let me do that,” he offered to pour some wine for her before doing so for himself.NôvelDrama.Org (C) content.

He saw her lift the glass to her lips and waited patiently for her to have the wine. His hands felt clammy as nervous guilt took over him.

Belle gulped all of her glass content in one drink. She reached for the bottle to pour herself another glass, she had no trouble finishing the whole bottle alone since she knew it was non-alcoholic; she didn’t know he had added something to it.

“Isn’t that too much?” He asked when she filled the glass more than he did the first time, more guilt taking over him.

“Nah, I actually need this. I didn’t know how much I needed it till you suggested it, thank you.” She smiled and gulped half of her glass again.”Won’t you have yours?” She saw that he hadn’t drunk any from his glass so she asked.

Nathan drank half too from his glass, so she didn’t get suspicious. He saw her finish her glass and went for the bottle again. He decided to stop her, his guilt had grown enough to let him stop her from taking any more of the wine. He reached for the bottle before she could and didn’t let her pour herself another one.

“Why?” Belle asked him, sounding a little drunk.

“That’s enough,” he held the bottle up from her.

“But I want more…” She stretched her arms to reach for it.

“No.” He lifted it higher. He knew what he added to the bottle, and even if he wanted to make her unconsciously desire him, he knew too much wasn’t good for her.

He had added some sildenafil citrate to the bottle to get her hormones on edge. He wanted to get intimate with her; according to his presumption, that would make her have second thoughts about giving him a chance. He believed that if she got in bed with him once, she would want to have him again.

Belle climbed on top of him to try and get the bottle of wine but his long arms were still out of reach. Nathan didn’t know how to feel when she came on top of him, he wondered if the drug was already working.

“Give it to me,” she pleaded in a low, alluring voice that almost messed with his senses. He had never heard her sound like that.

“You have had a little too much,” he told her, bringing his face to her, her slightly parted lips were calling his.

“It’s my bottle of wine, and it’s my house, I can have more whenever I want.” She hissed then became aware of his steadily approaching lips.”What are you doing?” She asked.

“Your lips… they are just too attractive,” Nathan replied, despite the lump he felt in his throat. He planned to wait a little longer to be sure the drug had started to take effect on her but he just couldn’t resist it anymore after she sat on his thighs. He kissed her, ready to face whatever reaction he got from her, good or not.

Belle felt his lips wet hers the moment they touched hers, a sudden surge of warmth taking over her body. He touched her tongue with his, making her want to push him away but she found herself not doing so for some reason.

He returned the bottle to the table. After that, his hands circled her waist while she still sat on him and she discovered she was okay with him doing that; she didn’t know why but she wanted him to touch other parts of her body too; she wanted him to touch her the way Ben did.

She could feel a kind of wave in between her legs, her clit had suddenly become erect and needed to be touched. He was still kissing her while she felt all of this.

“Mmmn.” She let out a slight moan when their lips separated.

He saw that the drugs were working on her now, so he used his chance well. He kissed her again, getting up from the chair while still holding her by the waist. His guilt had become clouded by lust.

Belle wrapped her legs around his waist as he lifted her. He let his hands stroll to her ass, grabbing them as a way of holding her now. He just went to a random door and pushed it open. Laying her down on the bed, he went on top of her. Belle tugged on his shirt trying to take it off him as quickly as possible, she just wanted to feel him inside her at that moment. She felt like she would lose her mind if he didn’t thrust her right away. She breathed heavily with need as she watched him put on a condom.

Meanwhile, in the living room, her phone began to ring but she wasn’t there to take it. It rang twice then it stopped. Ben assumed she had fallen asleep, he observed how tired she sounded the first time he called so he called only twice.

Belle ran her hands all over Nathan’s back and shoulders as he slid in and out of her slowly. They both could hear each other’s pleasure-filled exhalations. As most of their clothes were off them, she wished he would do more to her body than just penetrate her… but at least, her body had calmed down a little compared to before when she felt like she could lose it. Her body didn’t feel so aggravated with the need to be touched everywhere anymore.

*******

Saturday Morning.

Belle wanted to turn in her bed but felt an arm over her torso. She froze, her eyes meeting the ceiling first thing as they opened. She slowly turned her head left to see who it was laying on the bed with her.

She saw Nathan and panicked. Immediately getting his hands off her body, she came off the bed, holding her face in her palms wondering what happened. Some of it started to come to her, she remembered drinking with him and then sitting on his lap to get the bottle from him and after that all she could remember was him sexing her.

She stood at a spot and watched him sleep on, still covered barely by the blanket, and the sheets scattered. She closed her eyes in disappointment, running her hands through her messy hair.

‘What did you do Belle!’ Her inner self screamed at her.’This is one of the stupidest things you’ve ever done, you don’t even remember most of it!’

She hurried to the bathroom and immediately turned on the shower, letting its drop fall on her hair and all through her body. She squatted while still in the shower cubicle, and started to sob. She knew she made a stupid mistake sleeping with him.

She didn’t know he had drugged her and that was why she lost control of herself last night. All she could do at the moment was blame herself for all that happened.

She believed that she was the one who seduced him last night and couldn’t understand why she did so.

She was still sobbing when she remembered Ben’s words.” If anyone ever does as much as touching you the way I do, that person will pay with his life.” Her tears stopped as she worried for Nathan now.

She became scared. What would Ben do if he found out? She didn’t want to believe that he could actually do what he threatened.

Stopping the shower, she walked towards the long horizontal mirror spread out above many cabinets and took a look at herself in the mirror.

Her eyes were pink from all the crying. She tried to steady herself while seeing her reflection in the mirror glass. She was making a decision. She would make sure Ben didn’t find out about this; she didn’t want to find out if he could really do as he threatened. She couldn’t prevent the situation, so now she had to fix it. She would act like nothing happened last night, and try to keep things usual.

Despite thinking it was her fault, she couldn’t believe she did what she did but then it has already happened. She was now going to cover up for a night she didn’t even enjoy much. He didn’t know how to please her as Ben did. He just wore a condom and began fucking her plainly, he didn’t care to kiss all over her like Ben usually did, he didn’t eat her pussy and make her eyes roll back like Ben did, they just has plain sex. She sighed, rubbing her face one last time before going ahead to dry herself.

When she was done, she wore a bathrobe and walked out of the bathroom, she met him awake. He sat on the bed and tried to rub off the sleep in his eyes with his hands while she watched silently.

He finally caught her presence and stopped what he was doing. A grave silence took over as he didn’t know what to say. He hadn’t planned this all out properly, he should have thought of what to say but the truth was that he didn’t expect the plan to work at all.

Belle saw that he had no words and decided to speak. She cleared her throat before she spoke.

“Last night, I uhm, I know what I did wasn’t very right and this whole situation is just a little messed up but we can make it less messy.” She stopped and swallowed saliva, her throat seemed to be getting dryer as she spoke.

“We can just forget this ever happened, hmmm?” She looked at him for confirmation to know if he got what she just said.

“Forget?” She heard him, and her heart immediately feared that he wouldn’t agree to what she just said and it could end up bad for him. Nathan saw that she was blaming herself for last night and decided to take advantage.

“Yes, let’s forget anything happened between us last night, okay? You leave here and we never, ever talk about this. Hmmn?” She prayed deep down that he would just nod in agreement and everything would be fixed so easily.

“You want us to forget last night? Why? It was beautiful, wasn’t it?” She closed her eyes in prescribed angst. He was saying the very thing she didn’t want to hear from him.

“Nathan, no.” She went plain.”It wasn’t, okay? It wasn’t beautiful, it was a mistake, I somehow lost myself and that happened but we should forget about it because it means nothing.”

“I can’t,” she heard him and let her head hang backward in frustration.”I can’t just forget, and even if I could, I don’t want to. Yesterday was the first time I actually enjoyed having sex with someone in a long while and you want me to just forget.”

“Nathan, please can you just…” She hung her words, sighing with mixed feelings of sadness and annoyance. She wished he knew that forgetting was the best thing to do to keep him safe.

“It’s fine, we can forget if that’s what you want, anything to make you happy but I want you to know I enjoyed last night a lot.”

“It’s not just what I want, it’s for…” She paused when she realized he had just agreed to forget about it. She planned to tell him it was for your safety.

“I hope this wouldn’t make you avoid me like before,” she heard him and it reminded her that she would see him at work also so she rubbed on her face.