Love You Can’t Say

He looked at me with a deep gaze, unable to detect a hint of emotions, “I have no intention of divorcing you. To be precise, you don’t need that box.”

“So what?” I went close to him, “Dennis, did you think that by marrying you, you can call the shots for everything? In your opinion, am I not worth of your respect at all?”

“My apologies!” He spoke, stood in front of me and looked at me, and sighed slightly, “It’s my fault that I didn’t inform you about this. It won’t happen again.”

“Huh!” I wanted to laugh, “Dennis, I think you are hilarious. It’s such an understatement from you. In your opinion, does that useless box exist like me? If I was Olivia, would you do the same? Will you not tell her in advance, take her things on your own accord, and be so disrespectful towards her?”

“Clara, this is between us!” He frowned with evident displeasure, “Why do we have to involve others in our marital affairs?”

I was amused, “We are married?”

He frowned silently.

Looking up at his resolute and handsome face, I lowered my eyes and smiled, “Dennis, in your opinion, we are not a married couple but a pair that came together for our parents. You don’t have me in your heart as it has been occupied by someone else. Therefore, you won’t respect me. You would move my things at your will and decide on my stay as you please.”

Too many things had been brushed under the carpet. It wasn’t due to the box but my heart. I knew that I could no longer turn a blind eye and watch him, and Olivia interact with each other like before.

He probably didn’t want to talk to me. He looked at me and was very depressed, “Clara, you are my wife. I respect you very much. I apologized for the box. I didn’t decide your stay as I pleased. It’s getting late. Let’s go back to our room!”

“Dennis, let’s have a divorce!” I didn’t know how I said it, but it was very calm.

It was something that I had been holding back for a long and was just waiting for the right opportunity to say it.

He was stunned on the spot and his pair of black eyes fell on me. I wasn’t able to see much emotion, but I could guess that it was definitely not good.

“Have you considered it properly?”

I nodded, “Yes, I have!”

“What do you want?” He looked at me with an indifferent expression. I even thought that he was just going with my flow.

I thought for a while and said, “I don’t want anything. I just hope for the child to have nothing to do with you in the future.”

Since we were to break, it should be done cleanly!

He looked at me, his black eyes contracted tightly, “How do you intend to feed a child when you’ve got nothing? Rely on Luis? Or is it Leo?”

I raised my eyes and looked at him in disbelief, “Dennis, do you think I’m the same kind of person as you? Don’t use your cogitation to judge me!”

“What kind of person am I?” He approached me and his voice was very low, “I have explained countless times about Olivia. I didn’t ask about you and Leo. Are you not going to talk about it if I didn’t ask?”

I frowned and didn’t understand what he meant.

“What do you mean?”

He raised his eyebrows, “At Luna’s birthday party, you rejected me yet held onto Leo’s arms and entered L Community in a blink of an eye. Explain that.”

I was dumbfounded, opened my mouth, and didn’t know how to defend myself for a while.

He controlled his emotions very well. He took a glance at me and continued, “I’ve never asked about your affairs as I hoped that you could take the initiative to tell me about it and not make me ask. Clara, not all love needs to be proclaimed with a loudhailer. Loving you is the best reinforcement.”

“Leo and I…” I didn’t know where to start, my heart was feeling suffocated.

I didn’t want to explain, I didn’t even want to talk.

I said while looking at him, “Olivia already has Luna and Samuel. Can’t you let go of her? Leo and I are just friends, there’s nothing between us!”

I spoke with a guilty conscience. My face couldn’t cover my embarrassment after I spoke.

The surrounding temperature was a bit low. I knew that Dennis was furious at this time, yet he also felt guilty, “I am different from Olivia. As long as she cried, you, Luna, Samuel, Marcus, and so many other people would love and protect her. I don’t have those. I only have myself. To me, Leo existence is a nightmare. He and I can only be friends.”

His livid face eased a bit, and beckoned to me, “Come over.”

I took advantage of the situation and sat on the bed, lowered my eyes, and said aggrieved, “I can’t walk!”

He raised his eyebrows and walked towards me. He bent his legs and squatted beside my lap, “Too guilty to walk?”

I was silent, and he laughed helplessly, “I was wrong about the box. Grandpa gave you the box as he wanted to use it to trap our marriage. Clara, you and I both know that our marriage isn’t bound by it, so I threw the box away. I will take good care of you and our child. We are a couple, let’s live well together. Alright?”Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

I have no sense of security in our marriage. I can’t be sure whether Dennis’s words are true or not. I can’t be sure if he has let go of his affair with Olivia.

I’m pretty sure of one thing. That is, I still want to spend my life with him. It’s been a blessing to be able to marry the person I have in my heart.

It was a gift to be able to be with each other.

Therefore, I didn’t want to leave Dennis, unless necessary. This marriage is not just for me but also for my child.

If it’s possible, I want to spend my life with him.

I nodded as I looked at him, “Yes!”

He smiled lightly, a little helplessly, “Don’t talk about divorce ever again in the future?”

I helplessly nodded.

Upon seeing this, he lifted me, went directly to the garden room on the highest floor, placed me on the bed and put his hand on my stomach, and said, “I will bring you for the obstetric check-up tomorrow. Rest early tonight.”

I would have forgotten if he didn’t mention it, I nodded.

It was getting late. He went into the bathroom to take a bath. I was a little distracted while lying on the bed. My insecurity was not good for me. I still couldn’t trust him wholeheartedly and only trusted myself.

I didn’t like this!

“What are you thinking of?” He came out of the bathroom, wiped his hair with a bath towel, and stood by the bed, and looked at me.

I got out of my daze, sat up straight, and put my hand around his waist that was a little wet.

He wasn’t wearing pajamas, and I hugged his muscular lower abdomen in silence.

When he saw my actions, he threw the towel aside, hugged me in his arms and made me lean on his shoulder, and whispered, “Don’t overthink, it’ll be tiring for you.”

I nodded, with a little sad voice, “Dennis, can you stop contacting Olivia in the future?”

After a pause, I continued, “She has parents who dote on her and can do without you. I can’t, I only have you.”

Yes, I was using Olivia’s method to deal with him. If you’d never try, you’d never know.