Its Too Late To Forgive

Chapter 65: 64. THIS IS WHAT I DESERVED

Henry was shocked to hear what Carson said. He couldn't react at all. He felt sudden pain in his chest as if someone has stabbed him brutally.

His eyes were watery and blood red by now. He turned and walked towards Bella without speaking a single word more to Carson.

After meeting Bella again for so many months, this was the first time when he was actually looking at her carefully. He sat kneeling on the floor near her bed. Henry never thought that a person would change so much after just four years.

The small and exquisite face at the time became a little unrecognizable now, and the dull skin lost its brilliance that used to be there earlier. If one look carefully then one can still find the facial features of the Evans family, but it is no longer the original form.

Puffy eye bags, messy eyebrows, dry lips, rough skin… only four years! Just as Henry was about to touch Bella's lips, the person on the hospital bed moved slightly, turned her head, and the bangs covering her forehead slid down, revealing the scars covered by it.

Henry's eyes were sharp for an instant. He curled his brow and looked at the hideous scar for a long time. He couldn’t help but stretch out his hand to touch that scar. As soon as

he touched the scar on Bella's forehead, the woman on the bed woke up.

She subconsciously avoided his hand in horror!

'How could he be here?

What does he want to do??'

She was still in the illusion that she was at The Wild Hunt club. Henry's showed a different emotion.

'Is she trying to hide from me?'

As if not convinced, Henry stretched out his hand towards Bella again. Bella almost subconsciously picked up the quilt, and suddenly retracted her head into the quilt and moved back as much as she could.

Henry looked at the woman who was shrouded in the quilt, his face was cold and scary. This damn woman is really hiding from me, he thought. He was watching motionlessly at the ball huddled that Bella formed inside the quilt, it was vaguely visible that the quilt was shaking.

After Bella hid in the quilt, she began to regret it. Why did she hide in the quilt? If at all Henry wants to trouble or humiliate her, it will be useless for her to hide in outer space also. What’s the use of hiding in the quilt?

Henry said with a “huh”, and pulled off Bella's quilt with his big hands. His voice was suddenly cold and bitter, his thin lips closed, and he slowly asked,

“Are you trying to hide from me?”

“No!” Bella hurriedly said,

“I did not hide from you Mr. Jackson Sir."

Lie! She is simply hiding from him!

“What’s wrong with your voice? I have been noticing that since we have met again your voice has specifically become hoarse and rough."

“Sick and sore throat sir.”

Bella lowered her eyelids and refused to say more.

“Are you afraid of me?”

Bella's eyelids twitched and no longer refuted. The man stood by her hospital bed and raised his eyebrows slowly, making his heart even more unhappy.

Suddenly leaning forward, Henry put one arm on the mattress under Bella's horrified sight, and suddenly narrowed the distance between the two. With the other hand stretched out towards Bella. Bella retracted subconsciously, and Henry said calmly,

“Don’t move.”

Seeing Bella really behaving well, Henry moved his fingers away from Bella’s bangs, and touched the scar on her forehead. Bella’s entire body was sore and painful hence she couldn't move alot.

Henry touched Bella's scar with his finger, and pressed his lips without leaving a trace. He asked unhappily,

“Where did this scar come from?”

Bella glanced at Henry in front of him… hypocritical! Doesn’t he know where it came from? But she still replied,

“I got hurt sir.”

Thanks to you… She added another sentence in her heart. His finger rubbed the scar, rubbed it again and again, and then it went down more and more, touching her lips. The touch he felt from his fingertips was dry, peeling, and pale.

Bella didn’t dare to move casually, she stiffly leaned back her neck. Her small face was held by his big palm. Henry's thumb was rubbing against such dull set of lips. It was strange that it was not as matte

and tender as jelly, and not as blooming as a coquettish rose. The pale skinned lips aroused him inexplicably.

Henry’s eyes grew deeper and deeper, and the next second he swallowed her unceremoniously. He was kissing her harshly as if he was venting all his anger , his emotions , his love, his hatred in it. He left her only after he heard someone knocking at the cabin's gate. It was Carson, he had come along with his team to examine Bella further.

Without speaking a single word more, Henry left Bella's chamber and went outside to lit a cigarette for himself. A lot was running in his mind. Initially he was just thinking about all that she said earlier in the booth and now he was more frustrated and angry by what Carson has just said regarding the gang rape. He subconsciously banged his fist on the wall next to him and his fingers started to bleed.

Inside Bella's cabin -

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"I'm fine ... I... I am not sick. Can you let me go Dr. Carson Sir?"

Carson felt something pocking in his chest when he heard the way she addressed him. Even though they were not that close in the past but he always liked her and she always playfully called him Carsi.

"Don't worry , I'll just be performing a routine check-up."

"I'm not sick."

"I'll just check. There's no harm in that."

"No need. I'm really not sick."

Carson suddenly raised his head and looked at Bella with a smile,

“Hey Bella, what are you hiding?”

Bella’s heart stopped beating for a second,

“I just… i am not sick, I just don't like hospitals, that's all.”

Carson raised his chin towards the door,

“ Do you want me to call him in, and tell him in front of you that you are missing something important?”

Bella’s eyes widened suddenly! This is a thing she doesn't want to be known by other. Even more, she doesn't want it to be mentioned in the presence of the initiator of her condition, Henry Jackson.

“How do you know…oh… ofcourse,”

She paused after asking how Carson knew about her missing kidney,

and suddenly said

“Ofcourse you will know” inexplicably.

Carson squinted his eyes to look at Bella and he vaguely understood something. But, if things were really as he had guessed, then Carson looked at Bella with pity in his eyes. She was really in a sad and miserable state.

“Have you ever considered that you might have misunderstood some things? May be some things are not as same as what you think in your heart?”

At least, he thinks that no matter how much Henry Jackson hates Bella Evans, he won’t be that cruel to get her kidney removed.

“It’s all over. It's in the past now and THIS IS WHAT I DESERVED.”

This woman, who was once the most assertive and confident woman of city A, at this moment, she seems to have reached the end of her life. She was lifeless, like an old crone who had lived for a century and reached the end of her life.

Carson was shocked!

Although he had seen her kneeling humblely to Henry right in front of him, without a shred of dignity. But right now when he was facing this woman, that feeling was even more shocking!

That kind of humbleness, lowliness and low self-esteem was practically oozing out and revealing in her every word.

“A kidney - you lost a kidney! and all you can say is "it's all in the past"!

Carson remembered that beautiful and self-confident face from back then. Back then, The Bella Evans had many suitors. She was also the object of many famous and young people’s admiration. All her suitors were from esteemed families. But this woman now..... He only thought that three years had only changed her appearance. He didn’t expect it to be hollowed out. It seemed that it had emptied her of something deep inside her bones.

“Do you really think that everything that happened is really what you deserved Bella?”

Bella never even raised her eyes to look at Carson, repeating like a robot she said again,

“Yes, I deserve it all.”

Her face was so stiff that she didn’t look like a living person. Carson's eyes were full of disappointment. It turned out that, that Bella had really disappeared and would never appear again.

“I’m going to check you up now, please cooperate.”

Carson went back to do his business, and Bella is not allowed to dodge or move.

“You better stay still, I’m afraid of hurting you. Or, do you want me to call Henry Jackson in?”

This last sentence completely restrained Bella.

“You have a high grade Fever of 39.8 degrees Celsius. What’s wrong with you? You have a fever and what were you doing at that type of club? Don’t you know your physical condition? You are not a normal to begin with, but you dare get engaged in such activities. Do you have a death wish Bella?"

Carson was little worried about this woman. Right now the woman who nodded to everything that he said was also once his childhood friend. This girl grew up calling him Carsi. If Herny was not in scene, either he or Kevin would have probably married her. Even if they couldn’t go back to the past, she was still Bella Evans.

Carson didn’t have any thoughts or special feelings about Bella right now, after all she has killed someone they knew too, but it was just pity for her and past affection and nostalgia.

He stood up, took his things, and walked out after instructing the nurses to start her on I.v drip.

He didn’t say much to Henry, who was smoking outside the ward. But just said,

“Don’t torture her anymore. She is…not very well. Her.... her body is not In a good shape at present.”

He was not sure whether Henry knew about Bella's physical condition so Carson decided to change his words.

“I’ll let someone come and re examine her after a while.”

Saying this Carson took his things and left. After a while Henry entered Bella's cabin.

As soon as he entered he saw Bella was standing next to her iv drip set and while he was watching her, she removed the needle from her hand in one go. There was not a single expression of pain on her face and neither she looked scared of the needle. He remembered in the past, even to take out a sample or take a vaccine, Bella used to run around the whole hospital and today she casually took out the needle from her body and threw in to the other side without fear.

She then settled her clothes, she wore the ones that was inside the paper bag and was about to leave the hospital. All through out this time, she was so engrossed in her own thoughts that she did not sense somebody else's presence in the room.

As soon as she turned around, she saw Henry standing there with a sullen face. She got scared and moved two steps backward. She lowered her head and after few seconds, gathered her courage and started to walk outside. Henry blocked her way. She tried to go from the other side but just then Henry shifted his body also to that side. Bella tried again but was again blocked by Henry.

Atlast Bella spoke,

"Sir, please let me go."

"Where do you want to go?"

"For my work sir. I need to go back for my work."

" Work!!!! You want to go back to the Wild Hunt ha...."

Henry was once again angry. He couldn't control his anger. He wanted answers from Bella and Bella seems to be avoiding him. He wanted to know everything that has happened with her in last 4 years but she was refusing to speak to him. She was running away from him. His anger was slowly taking over his patience.

Henry looked down at Bella, hesitated for a moment then suddenly bent over and picked her up.

"Let me down sir!"

He threw her on the bed and pressed upon her. He grabbed her neck with one hand and looked down at her.

"You wanted to be Mrs. Jackson so badly. Where do you want to escape now? "

"I....."

He pinched her neck too tightly. She coughed violently before trying to speak again.

"Really?"

Henry picked his eyebrows. Though his face was expressionless, his cold eyes were dark as if brewing a storm.

With a snort, he held her crotch tightly in his legs. He looked at her dress that she wore. He raised his hand and tore her dress apart.

"No....."

Henry initially didn't wanted to do anything with her but after he saw her blossoms peeping out of her dress, some changes appeared on his face. Bella knew what he was going to do. But she didn't wanted to.

She was still in fever. Her strength was not much. She resisted. She knew it was senseless resistance and she had to lie down at last. As soon as she stopped struggling, Henry stopped too.

Henry got up, looked down at her and said in an angry voice ,

"Bella Evans, don't you want to be Mrs. Jackson so much?"

His words made her laugh. She looked at him and laughed,

"Have you ever seen such a miserable lady like me? I was framed by the person whom I loved the most. Nobody believed me... nobody. And you still think I want to be Mrs. Jackson!"

As she said, she sat up from the bed and took off the nearly torn dress. Henry looked at her and seemed unable to figure out what she was going to do.

She exposed most of her body and raised her head and showed him her scars. She then showed her thighs "and here...."

Her entire body was heavily scarred obviously with new injuries over the old ones. Henry did not speak. Bella sneered,

"Why not speak? Do you dare not admit what you have done?"

"What is this?"

Henry was silent for a moment and then spoke.

"Why do you ask me? You let the warden and other prisoners beat me! "

Bella almost yelled.

"I resisted. They put me in a dog cage. They forced me to bark like a dog and walked me with a rope. Pee like a dog, eat like a dog and get fucked like a dog. If I didn't listen to them, they kept beating me. I felt pain, I dared not refuse."

It seemed as if she was looking at everything that was happening with her. She was hysterical. She half knelt and complained about what she had suffered in the prison. Henry listened but did not say a word.

He was trying to put all the puzzle pieces together. Bella was speaking half of the time and crying the half. Her talks were not clear but her emotions spoke everything needed by Henry to understand things.

She was quite for a while and then finally composed herself and spoke again,

"Did you see it? As you wished, I'm already miserable! Please let me go now. I've been punished well."

Henry looked at her with complicated eyes and finally asked what he wanted to know the most about,

"What happened to the child you spoke about?"

"That child ? Our child! I conceived by you repeatedly raping me...."

Henry felt something sharp pricking in his heart when Bella said the word "raped". For him it was making love with her everytime they were together. For the first time he realized that she never responded to his touch that time and was always crying and begging to be free. But due to the pleasure he felt whenever he was inside her, he always ignored her cries and pleads. It seemed now that he was actually raping her against her will all the time.

"I had been pregnant for over four months. I didn't wanted to escape. I wanted to deliver that child. After all I did get pregnant by the man whom I loved the most. Even though it was a child out of rape, it was my child.

I just wanted to give birth to that child. Why didn't you give me that chance. It was my 1st child!

You know what? When I was held down by those people and my child was crushed down by their pipers, I suffered the pain thousands of times more then one can imagine."

She suddenly grabbed Henry and told him that she will never forgive him for rest of her life! Her tears kept falling down the corners of her eyes. Her first child died. Henry sat at the corner of the bed. He

didn't speak and just watched her cry.

He did not leave either. Obviously, he refused to let her go. Bella didn't know for how long did she cried but soon she got tired and closed her eyes and sailed far away in her unconscious.

As she was about to fall into darkness, she felt a warmth. She heard someone say in her ear,

"if I say everything has nothing to do with me.. will you....."

Before she could hear that man completely, Bella once again ended in coma.