Chapter 87
I turned to look at him and accidentally a tear dripped from my eye. Damn! It isn’t the right time to cry, Darlyn! Don’t cry!Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.
“A big lie, Xyleus? Ah, that’s why you told me a few times before that you don’t love me anymore. That you’re bored with our relationship because I’m all about work. That’s why … you looked for a job. It’s different. was that so, Xyleus? It’s great, huh? It’s all just a joke. It’s all nonsense … “I laughed and forced myself to stare at him.
He suddenly grabbed my one arm so my eyes widened. I was also slightly shaken by the intensity of the electricity I felt when he touched me. No … Why was this? This feeling seems so familiar …
“Darlyn, from then on, until now you’ve been the only one I’ve loved. Why don’t you believe me?” he asked passionately and moved the grip of his hand on mine.
Tears welled up in my eyes at that question. Bullshit! Why trust the topic here again? I hate it! I don’t want to be confused again!
I immediately snatched my hand from him but he caught up with it and immediately grabbed it tightly. Damn it, it’s like the pain that I buried in the pit for a long time has returned because I can’t feel it anymore. But here it was and it seems to be coming back again. What kind of heart was this?
“I don’t want to, Xyleus. Please, don’t force me to do something I don’t want. Don’t force me to believe in you because it’s impossible for that to happen.” I have no emotional promise but my eyes were betraying me. It just keeps shedding tears for a long time without dripping because of my long hold there.
Her lips parted. I was slightly taken aback when I saw a shiny object dripping from his left eye.
“Darlyn, I know it’s my fault because I betrayed you but … I did it for your good. Even though I was hurt before because I saw you hurt I still continued it because I don’t want to hurt you … You were our child . ”
I close my eyes emphatically. “Please, Xyleus, don’t speak. Don’t speak anymore. Don’t let me get even angrier with you. Don’t waste your saliva just to tell me words that don’t have any truth.”
“Darlyn, please. Believe me-”
I woke up and cut him off from what he was going to say. “What can’t you understand that I don’t want anymore, Xyleus ?! I’m tired of saying that! I’m so tired. I’m tired of believing and trusting you because …” I couldn’t continue what I was going to say because of a sob that escaped from in my mouth. Damn it! Come on, Darlyn! You were not like this!
He also grabbed my other hand and I did nothing more to remove his hand from there. I feel like I’m weakening here with what’s happening. Instead of thinking about the more important thing, this was what I really care about now.
He stared me in the eye. “Please, Darlyn. Tell me, what were you afraid of? I’m ready to help you get through that. Please, tell me …” she said pleadingly while still looking into my eyes.
I didn’t answer and just looked at him tearfully. I love Xyleus too. Too much type I agreed right away when he offered to marry me. But why was this? I was just hurt too much already because of that love.
When maybe I didn’t answer him he planned to speak again. “Please, Darlyn. Tell me and I’ll fix-”
“I’m scared, Xyleus. I’m so scared I’m going to trust you because maybe if I do that I’ll get hurt again later.” I almost whispered as he interrupted his speech.
I averted my gaze from him after I let go of those words.
I ‘m scared. I’m really, really scared. For the past five years, I finally admitted that I’m scared of something. That I’m not really strong enough because the truth was, I’m too vulnerable.
What people around me know was that I am a strong and cheerful person. But deep inside, I’m slowly dying because of the pain that wounded my heart badly. Still not losing your pain I felt from the past. And in the years that have passed I seem to have convinced myself that there was no cure for that wound.
“You’re scared?” Xyleus asked so I turned to him.
I nodded. “I’m so scared. I also don’t know if it’s going to go away.”
Xyleus bit his lower lip while slowly nodding. I also noticed the tightening of his grip on my two hands so I stared at it. His thumb was now caressing the back of my palm.
“I’ll help you conquer your fear together, then. I’ll help you overcome it. Just … please, give me a chance to prove my love for you. I promise, I won’t hurt you anymore this time . ” he said while looking at me intently.
I sighed and shook. “I don’t know, Xyleus. I don’t know what to do anymore …” I whispered.
He hugged my two arms around his waist so I could hug him. He also wrapped his arms around my waist to hug me back. I felt the touch of his lips on my forehead so I stopped crying.
Kiss on the forehead … He told me before when we were just friends that he would only do that to women who were more important than his own life. I’ve seen him kiss his sisters and his mother in their cheeks but not in the forehead. He didn’t even kiss me on the forehead before.
My two hands creased the black t-shirt he was wearing. My heartbeat also quickened. Shit, what new feeling was this again?
His lips parted from my forehead and he presented his face to me.
“I’ll help you, Darlyn. I’ll do anything just to make up for all the sins I’ve committed against you.” he said and stared into my eyes intently.
I closed my eyes sharply and sighed. “I don’t know, Xyleus. I’m not ready yet. Especially since I don’t know what truth and lies were at these times …” I said with my eyes closed.
“What do you want to know, Darlyn?” he asked waking me up.
I took a deep breath and cast a spell. “I know Uno and Kuya Seymour were one …” I said directly and I saw the parting of his lips. “And I also know you’re a member of Dark Alpha and you’re third in the highest, am I right?” I will ask.
He nodded. “Yeah …”
I swallowed again. I didn’t know how he would possibly answer my question so I was really nervous.
“Why … Why did he kill Andrea’s family? Why do Andrea and I seem to be angry with each other? Why was Kuya Seymour fighting the Flaming Cross?” my hands trembled after I asked you. I know he felt that because my arms were wrapped around his waist.
After I asked that to him I noticed the heaviness of his breathing. I frowned at him and he immediately averted his eyes.
“Xyleus, I’m asking you. Please, answer me, answer my questions. I know you know the answers to my questions.”
He turned to me. I saw how his lips quivered. And his eyes, it was full of anxiety and worry. Shit, what does he know that I don’t know?
“Do you really want to know?” he asked in a sweet tone.
I nodded. “Yes, of course. I’ve been bothered by those questions for a long time since I found out that my older brother and Uno were one.”
He smiled. I almost gasped because of that strange kind of smile of his that I had just seen.
“Do you trust that Andrea Steinfields so much, Darlyn?” he asked while smiling.
My forehead furrowed slightly. What’s gotten into him? “Of course, Xyleus. I won’t have an alliance with her if I don’t trust her.” wrinkled when I said.
His grin was erased and he suddenly shrugged. “You shouldn’t trust her, Darlyn.” aniya.
“What were you saying, Xyleus?” my forehead furrowed even more. Seriously, I don’t really understand him.
He smiled. “Her father killed your father, Darlyn …” he said so I was shocked. My mouth opened and a deep breath came out of it. “And now, she’s planning to get even. Because your older brother killed his family he will take revenge. And I’m sure he’ll hurt you there. She hates your family so much.”
I accidentally made me laugh. was it crazy that I’m talking? “Stop joking around, Xyleus. You’re not funny. That’s a bad joke you’re saying.” I shook my head. was he really annoying me?
“I’m not joking, Darlyn! In fact, I’m still preparing you because that woman might kill you. Don’t be a deaf, will you? Listen to me even now.” his hand moved to my two shoulders and held them tightly.
My mouth cried. I can’t understand what Xyleus was saying! He’s weird! “was it okay! If you can’t do anything, leave me alone! Don’t beat me!”