I’m Just His Wife

“We’re at my friend’s condo.” I answered and leaned back in my seat. I was tired. “Do you want to go home?” I asked. It seems like she’s okay now so I better send her home already.

He immediately shook so I was surprised. “I don’t want to go home first. I don’t even want to see my family first.” I noticed the sadness on his face.

My brow unconsciously raised itself up. “Why? Did something happen between you and your family?” alright, you look like an intruder on his life, Ivan.

“Hmm. Nothing. They’re keeping something from me and they really don’t want me to know that. Besides, my sister ran away from us so I don’t have a partner at home.” he replied and yawned.

That conversation we had ended up in a drink. No, he was cheering so I didn’t say anything. Creed still doesn’t exist to this day and I”m starting to stalk that beast. Maybe that included Hannah or at worst she might have been raped.

“Cheers!” he raised the bottle of beer that I could not count how many more.

I was just shaken and our bottles collided. I took a deep breath and blinked hard when my eyes suddenly rolled. Shit, I think I’m drunk.

“I know, we’re not close but …” he suddenly spoke so I woke up and looked at him. ‘thank you for listening to my grievances. It’s good that you didn’t get tired of my complaints here in my lifetime.” he smiled at me and drank more wine from his bottle.

I laughed softly. “Do you know how to say that?”

He nodded. “Yes. I’m used to barkada. But in front of a lot of people I’m modest. You know, our reputation was always important. My last name was Crisostomo so I have to be careful.” his gaze was fixed on the table. “It’s hypocritical if it’s hypocritical but that’s how life really was sometimes, isn’t it? You have to pretend for a proper reception.”

I nodded. Even I am like him. I also pretend sometimes in front of other people. “You’re right. But you don’t have to pretend all the time. You also have to prove yourself once in a while. Be confident because you were the one who made your own self.” my advice to him.

He smiled. “I can’t help but pretend, Ivan. Because I’ll only look like a fool when I force myself on people I know won’t like who I really am.” he stared at me as he said that. “And another thing was that this was the world of our up-lifters. There’s nothing we can do about it. This was how we were.”

After we drank I led him to a room. It looks like he’s even more drunk ah. Tsk, why did I agree to let us drink.

We went into the bedroom and I laid him down neatly on the bed. I hugged him but I was so shocked when he suddenly turned to me and suddenly kissed me.

Damn, my eyes widened and I couldn’t move. She knows how to kiss! Maybe it’s true the rumor that she had many boyfriends before. But … why not Seymour? They have also been together for a long time.

I immediately walked away from him. He woke up and I saw his frustration. Langya, was he like this? Just kissing someone?

“Why did you do that?” kunot noo kong tanong. I felt a little annoyed for her. “I’m not your boyfriend so you shouldn’t kiss me. You did that wrong.” I added.

“I want you to be my boyfriend, Ivan …” her beautiful eyes looked at me devilishly and sleepily. Damn it.

I heaved a sigh. “No. I have a girlfriend. You’re just drunk. Go to sleep.” I got out of bed but he immediately overtook me. Unlike before he did not kiss me.

“Have I forgotten, Ivan?” tears were pooled in her eyes. My eyes widened in surprise. Fuck, never did I forget about her! “We promised it to each other. We’re just the two of us. But why aren’t you paying attention to me? I’ve loved you so much ever since …” she caressed my face.

I looked down at his lips which made my breathing heavier. I swallowed and looked into his eyes. They were still the same. Those beautiful eyes that caught my attention before.

“I was your best friend. I told you before that you will marry me …” he laughed softly. I also noticed that her tears kept coming. “But look at you. The deceit was your deceit. You don’t remember me. You have a girlfriend. You’re so unfair. I waited for you for so long and yet-”

I cut off what she was going to say by kissing her. Shit, I don’t want her to say anything. Yes, he was the one I want to be with for life. I want her to be my wife. Fuck my friendship with Seymour, fuck that destiny that prevents us from loving each other, fuck that all. I want her. Just for tonight.

I woke up when I felt something bright that poking me eyes. I opened my eyes and suddenly woke up when I remembered something. Damn! What did I do!

I looked to my side and saw that Rigella was no longer there. I also saw a red spot on the sheets. I sighed and tugged at my own hair. Darn it, Ivan! Why did you send that? The red spot only means that she was just a virgin! You can’t even remember if you slowed down or what!

Fuck, I was drunk. I was not able to contain myself. I’m sorry, Seymour. I’m sorry, too, Rigella. And most of all, damn, I’m sorry, Larisse.

“I’m pregnant …” she cried in front of me. She looks miserable.

My mouth parted. My eyes automatically found its way to her stomach. Shit. There was already content in that. She’s now carrying our own child.

“Ivan, I still have dreams. I … I don’t know what to do. Help me, please …” he almost begged.

I could not speak immediately. I was suddenly blank. I don’t know a word to answer what he said. It was as if I was suddenly dumbfounded.

I sighed. This was the result of your foolishness, Ivan. “Just … Just don’t abort or do something horrible on the baby. I’ll make a way.” I can’t look at him while saying that. We were in the back of the university but I was still afraid that someone might see or hear us.

I silently passed him as my fists clenched tighter and tighter. He was still young. We were young. What foolishness have I done?

“Will you marry me?” I smiled at Larisse’s offer as I knelt in front of her. Damn, I don’t know why I”m doing this. I can’t think of anything sensible to do.

A few tears dripped from his eyes. He smiled. I thought he would take the ring and wear it on his finger but I was wrong. A loud slap I received from him.

“How dare you propose to me after you just impregnated another girl, Ivan.” he looked at me badly while crying. “If you’re doing this just to escape your responsibility, you’d better just offer another woman to marry. I’m not going to use someone just like you.” he slapped me again on the other cheek and quickly passed me.

I was stunned there. I sat down on the floor and closed my eyes firmly. You’re confused, Ivan! How many more women will you hurt because of your stupidity? Tangina!

As soon as I stepped on the door of our house, I immediately received a message from dad. I wasn’t surprised either. I know he already knows what I did and I”m sure he”ll get even angrier with me.

“were YOU REALLY SHAMEFUL, HA?” he shouted loudly at me. I am now sitting on the floor because of the force of his blow. I wiped the blood from my lip. I deserved this.

Mom was crying as she approached me. He knelt down and hugged me. Langya, Ivan. Even your own mother was hurting you.

“WE TOLD YOU BEFORE TO STAY AWAY FROM THAT RICARDO’S SON! BUT WHAT? HA? YOU APPROACHED! YOU’RE STILL PREGNANT!” dad shouted and threw in where the vase he was holding.

‘that’s enough, Ivo! Our son just made a mistake! What were you!” crying, mom said.

“WRONG? JUST? FOR GOD FOR HOLY, JANE! THIS was A HUGE DAMAGE TO OUR FAMILY! WHY were YOU GOING TO TOLERATE THAT CHILD! HE was ABUSE OF YOUR KINDNESS!” dad’s voice was the only thing I could hear. I just folded my arms and hugged mommy. I don’t care about Dad anymore.

“YOU WILL STAND UP FOR RICARDO’S SON, WHATEVER YOU DON’T WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT! AFTER ALL, HE was THE ONE YOU WANT, ISN’T HE? BUT DON’T EXPECT THAT YOU WILL GET AN INHERITANCE FROM ME!” dad shouted again and mommy passed us. He violently opened the door and slammed it shut.

“Ma … I’m sorry.” I took mommy’s hand and kissed the back of her palm. We were now sitting on the couch. She also stopped crying but I was still hurting. Her eyes were swollen.

She smiled sadly at me. Damn, am I lucky because even though I’m not his real child he still takes care of me? I don’t deserve him. He was very smart and dad looks right. I abuse his kindness.

“You don’t have to apologize, son.” aniya. “You just made a mistake. I should be the one to apologize to you because I didn’t even defend you to your daddy. I’m sorry, son …” he cried again so I immediately hugged him.

“Mom, I didn’t mean to. I was really carried away by my emotions. I love her so much …” I bit my lower lip and let myself cry.

I’m not ashamed to cry because it’s mom. He prefers me to cry in front of him because that’s where I can express how I really feel.

He stroked my back. “I know that, son. I know you didn’t mean that but … it’s unfortunate. I still have many dreams for you.” he whispered in my ear. “But I’m not mad at you. Never. Promise, I’ll help you fix everything. I’m just always here, okay?”

I leaned over his shoulder. Langya, why was my mother so smart? “Mom, I’m ashamed of you. It’s okay for you to be angry. Just don’t be like this. You’re being so kind to me …”Content rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.