I’m Just His Wife

I stared at Seymour until I sat down in front of him. I put my two hands on the table and folded it. When I looked at him again, he also looked at me.

“How were you, Seymour?” I asked sarcastically. Suddenly the anger that my system had been hiding for so long erupted. “How was your life here in jail? Was it fun? Was it worth the evil you did?” I asked a series of questions.

I saw the movement of his jaw. He tilted his head and bit his lower lip. “You shouldn’t have asked that. The answer was already obvious.” even his voice seemed weak as well. Wow, what happened with Uno’s dangerous and frightening voice.

‘tell me, Seymour. Who were you to ruin my life like this?” I asked emphatically. He opened his mouth and frowned. “Who were you … To kill my family for no good reason?”

Her mouth dropped open. “I’m sorry …” he whispered but that was just enough for me to hear.

My right eye brow unintentionally raised up. “Your” I’m sorry “was definitely not the answer for my question, Seymour.” I was shaken. “What’s the point of being the valedictorian of elementary and high school? Being cum laude when you were in college if my simple question was that you can’t answer?”

“Andrea, that’s enough.” I heard Darlyn say behind me but I didn’t look at her.

“You won’t believe my answer, Rigella. Whatever I explain to you you won’t understand.” Seymour replied.

I sighed and laughed heartily. I stood up in my seat causing the back of my knee to hit the seat. Its retreat created a loud noise.

“I don’t understand?” I could feel the glare in my eyes when I asked him that. ‘then explain! I’ll try to understand even if it’s vague! Because I am, I can’t do this anymore! I’m in a mess!” slapped my palm on the table.

“Shit! Drea!” Laren shouted and I could see out of the corner of my eye him touching my shoulder. “You’re pregnant! That’s enough!” I didn’t even look at Laren.

“Did you know?” with my index finger I pointed at him. My voice calmed down slightly but the chisel was still there. “All my life I’ve done nothing but trust you.” I swallowed and took a deep breath. I don’t seem to be able to say as much as I want to say.

“I thought you would never be able to harm me. I thought your kindness was worse than a saint’s but no! Not because you were more of a beast than a demon!” there were more tears dripping from my eyes. Shit, I’m fed up with this! “You’re still good! Your daddy was the only one missing. But me!” I taught myself. “Me! My whole family was gone! My whole family was gone!”

‘that’s enough, please … Andrea …” Darlyn said. She was crying while beside me.

Seymour spoke again. “I know you can’t forgive me, Rigella. But, please, you’re pregnant. You can’t be so angry-”

“Why were you acting like a lamb-like friend now, Seymour? Why do you seem to be concerned about me all of a sudden? Has the wind really changed?” I used my most sarcastic tone.

“What! Stop that!” Darlyn said again.

I turned to him. “Oh, shut up, Darlyn! You’re not even telling me you’re visiting this sister of yours!”

“I’m not saying that because I don’t want to add to your stress, Andrea. Please, that’s right. You’re pregnant!” he was already trampled while saying that. Her eyes were like a faucet because of the flow of her tears from there.

“You know I’ve wanted to talk to her for a long time, Darlyn! But you’re holding me back! And now that I can talk to her I won’t miss it!”

“What!” she cried and violently wiped away her tears. “Do you really want to know everything, huh ?! Do you ?!” he asked aloud.

“Yes, Darlyn! Yes! Because you don’t know how I feel-!”

“Brother Seymour DID!” he was cutting into my sayings.

It was as if my world stopped spinning when he said that. I held both hands on the side of the table for support.

I suddenly fainted. No … I know that illness. How could he have that?

“Darlyn.” Seymour used his tone as when he scolded Darlyn.

“No, Brother. He needs to know!” Darlyn shouted.

“Stop that! That doesn’t matter!”

“Oh, shut up, Kuya!” Darlyn turned to me. “I guess you know that illness, Andrea. You studied a course for being a psychiatrist but you didn’t continue it. But I know, you learned everything about mental and psychological problems.”

I swallowed and couldn’t answer. She’s right. I studied that course for two years …Belonging to NôvelDrama.Org.

“Only now did I find out about that older brother’s illness. When you arrived, his psychiatrist also left. That doctor proved to me that Kuya Seymour was really sick. He has had that kind of illness since he was a child.” she stated. “He experienced a traumatic incident that triggered him to have that kind of mental problem. He didn’t tell you that because he didn’t want you to stay away from him then.”

I bit my lower lip. “Why were you telling me those things, Darlyn? What does this have to do with what I said earlier?”

“I don’t know either. But I feel like it’s connected to what happened. Right, Brother?” Darlyn turned to Seymour. Even I turned to her brother who now could not look at us and frowned in impatience.

“Brother, tell us, please! Aren’t you really going to tell me something earlier if I didn’t just leave to go to Andrea’s?” Darlyn still insisted.

Seymour looked up at him. He stared at her for a moment before smiling sadly. Nothing on my own made me sigh because of that. That smile … The last time I saw that was when we were just in high school …

Seymour took a deep breath and sadness covered his entire appearance. “I have three personas here in my brain …” he confessed. My forehead wrinkled slightly. I also know that persona thing. ‘that was me, Seyj and Selgi.” he added.

‘three people?” suddenly you came out of my mouth for him to look at me. “In the times you’ve been with me, admit it to me. Who have I been with the three of you?” I will ask.

He sighed again. “It was Seyj. Since I came back to the Philippines he has been in control of my body. I was jailed and so as Selgi, one of my personas that was a kid. Seyj imprisoned us and it was a long time before we were released. Actually, three I only disappeared months ago and he was the one I imprisoned. ” he replied.

I nodded. So that fucking Seyj that he was talking about was the real Uno? And that”s what I was with five years ago? So … I noticed him changed weirdly. He became touchy. But … heck! It was hard to believe then!

“was that even possible? I mean, how can you have that kind of pain?” Laren asked.

“I was kidnapped when I was a child and I was near from getting killed. But luckily, I survived but the trauma it caused me didn’t.” Seymour blinked sharply and leaned back in his chair.

“I still don’t believe you, Seymour.” I said again. He woke up and I could see the shock in him. “I need enough evidence to prove that what you were saying was true. I will talk to you again once everything was proven.” I have prepared myself to prepare for departure. This was a serious matter. I need to have it investigated carefully.

“Can you forgive me, Rigella?” his sudden question stopped me. My eyes remained on him. How dare he ask that?

I puckered my lips before speaking. “I can forgive you Seymour. I assure you that. You know me, don’t you? I don’t have a long quarrel with someone even though … No matter how bad or bad they’ve done to me.” I answer his question. “But first, I need to know everything first. We haven’t talked properly yet so you need to be prepared for your answers to me. Because just one wrong answer will lose the slightest chance that I will forgive you.” I looked him straight in the eye before I turned my back on him.

I turned to Laren and nodded. “Let’s go.” I cheered him on and he immediately nodded.

“I hope you already made up your mind, Drea.” Laren told me when we got out of the police station.

I heaved a sigh and tilted my head to meet her gaze. “You know that it will never happen, Laren. I still lack answers. And please, I’m tired today. I really want to rest. Join me at the hospital.” I swallowed my senses. It hurts a little but that’s why the pain.

“I told you so, you shouldn’t have gone in here. And then there’s Lara. Later on, your stress will be too much and your child might even hurt you.” he added.

I was shaken and accidentally knocked down. I’m absolutely tired of everything and I want to rest. I’m too lazy to even speak. “I know my body too well, Ren. Besides, you know I’m not going to do anything to harm my son and me. Just, come on. I want to sleep and eat carbonara. I’m sure Mommy cooked then.”

He closed his eyes tightly and took a deep breath. “Fine. Get in the car. Go to sleep right away huh? As soon as we get there you’ll go to sleep right away.” he carefully pulled my arm so I just held on. I’m too tired to even answer her.