I’m Just His Wife

Because he promised me. He said that his love for me will protect me as always. That he wouldn’t let me get hurt. He knew I would be hurt when he lost me so I knew he wouldn’t give up. It was just a test and I knew he could get through it.

“I know, sister. But …” Mommy wiped the tears dripping from her left eye. “I can’t help but to think about the possibilities. I’m so worried for my son. You know, he was peaked when he was just a child. I know you know that because you’re both young.”

I nodded slowly. Yes, I know that. Ivan was so sick that he was once taken to the hospital. There was also a time when he was about to die. I saw then how Mommy Jane would worry for her just like what was happening now.

“But he got through that so I know he can get through this one too. Just pray for him, Mommy. Trust in god too. I know He will save Ivan.” I will strengthen his heart.

“I will, sister.” Mommy nodded. “I’m sorry about this. I can’t just help but to feel emotional. All right, go to him. I know you’re more worried for him.” Mommy tapped my shoulder.

I smiled and put on the surgical mask I had been holding. “Stay here, Mommy. I will update you later.” I said.

He nodded. “Alright.”

I also adopted Mommy Jane as well as Daddy Iverson and Ivy. They also gave me only a frugal nod.

“Let’s go, Creed.” I turned to Creed who was staring blankly at us.

“Sure.” he sparingly answered and went to the ICU first.

I just quietly followed him on foot. I am currently thinking on how will I react if I already saw Ivan’s condition. I can’t quite imagine how he looks now. And one more thing I don’t want to think about that either. Maybe I’ll just back out here to visit Ivan.

As soon as I stepped inside the ICU, the cold air brought by the air conditioner immediately came to me. I took a deep breath and blinked emphatically. Holy, how can I do this? It was as if all of a sudden I wanted to back off.

I also woke up and continued walking. All I know was that Ivan was the only patient here in the ICU because maybe he was the owner of this hospital.

Creed suddenly stopped so I stopped too. My gaze was on the floor so I can’t see what was in front of me. I looked up and sighed when I saw him. Ivan.Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.

I bit my lower lip to stop crying. Her breathing was slow as several tubes were attached to her. There were also many machines around him. His neck and one of his legs were also cast. I also see a few passes with him.

He had other injuries without my knowledge. But why didn’t he tell me? He always really likes to keep secrets.

I approached him immediately and examined his face. He just seemed to be sleeping peacefully at first glance. It was nice to see him in this state but I knew it felt better to see him awake and smiling at me.

“You only have five minutes to stay here. Ivan’s condition was so dangerous right now that his doctors were taking care of him.” Creed suddenly said so my gaze shifted to him. “Go and talk to him. Talking to him will help him. It may speed up his recovery.”

I just nodded and faced Ivan again. His condition was changing now. Sometimes he recovers a bit and sometimes things get worse for him.

“Hello, Ivan …” I smiled and let the tears flow that I had been holding back.

“It’s been five days but you still don’t wake up. Your deceit. I woke up even earlier than you. Aren’t you stronger than me? You’re my shield, aren’t you? But … Why was this? You’re sleeping still … “I gently stroked her hair. “Wake up again oh. Keep your promise to me that you will always protect me from pain. That you will not let me get hurt. And I will be hurt when you disappear so you were there, huh? Fight. There were still children let’s … ”

“We’ve gone through a lot of hardships and both of us have gone through it. And this time you have to fight even harder. Because … Because I don’t know what will happen to me when you lose me. I love you so much. I love you so much. I kind of don’t know how to continue my life when you’re gone because … You’re the one who’s my strength now. So please, wake up. ” I blinked emphatically as a sob escaped my mouth. I no longer care if Creed was watching me. I had to tell Ivan everything I wanted to say to him.

Suddenly the memories of the two of us came back to my mind. Yes, he used to hurt me but I can see how upsetting it was in him that he was doing that. But I couldn’t question him because I knew he had a reason.

I don’t know when he loved me but I know he”s telling the truth to me now. I believe that he loves me even though he has hurt me a few times. I am sure of everything now so he can’t just leave me hanging. I need him right now. I need him forever. I want to grow old with him by my side.

I woke up and cried even more when I saw that he was still not awake. Why so? I’m the one waking him up but he still can’t wake up? What does he want me to do?

“Don’t say goodbye, please. I can’t …” you were my life. I couldn’t add to what I was saying because of the sobbing.

If I were given a chance to visit the past again, I wouldn’t leave his side even if that’s what he really wants. I will fight even if I am alone because I love him. Very dear. He was my greatest love.

Ivan was not perfect. I know that. He has made many mistakes but … I hope God will grant him more. I hope He still chooses to revive my husband because he has also done good things. Ivan’s personality was different from his appearance but I know in myself that he was still the Ivan I met when we were kids. He was still the warmhearted and kind Ivan.

I swallowed before speaking again. “If you want, let’s just stay away so we can avoid problems. I’m ready to leave everything just to be with you so please … Fight for your life and wake up for me. Wake up. up for us. We still love you a lot … ”

“Andrea, let’s go. Your time was up.” said Creed so I stopped speaking.

I didn’t look at him like before. I stroked Ivan’s hair again and stared at him. He looks like an angel. The reason why he easily got my attention when we were still kids.

“I love you so much. Always remember that, okay?” after I said that I kissed his forehead even though I was wearing a surgical mask. “I’ll visit you again tomorrow. I hope you’ll wake up today, honey. I’ll pray for you. Just wake up, okay?” that was the last thing I said to him before he turned away to face Creed.

“Let’s go.” Creed nodded.

I smiled even though he couldn’t see it. “Okay. Thanks for joining me here.”

“No problem. You’re his wife so you have the right to visit him.” he started walking so I followed him again as before.

But just a few steps away I heard a strange sound. Even Creed was stopped from walking as well. I quickly turned to Ivan and ran to his seat.

“What’s happening to you ?!” I shouted it at the top of my lungs. His body shakes rapidly but his eyes were still closed!

“Damn it!” Creed’s crunchy cheap that was next to me turned out and there was something pressed into the machine above Ivan’s bed.

“Creed, do something!” I cried as I held Ivan’s arm and hair.

“I’m sorry, this isn’t my field! Ivan’s doctors were coming here!” he was sorry.

Ivan’s body was still shaking so I cried even more and was more nervous. Fuck this life! There was nothing I could do to save her!

“What’s happening to him?” I almost whispered the question.

“He’s having a seizure. Fuck! Why do the doctors take so long ?! Ivan’s seizure was over thirty-five seconds. It’s bad!” I turned to Creed and saw that he had already washed his palm on his face, probably because he was so frustrated.

I saw that the machine next to Ivan was gradually becoming a flat line, so I almost fainted. No! He can’t be lost yet!

“I’m sorry, I’m late. What’s happening?” a man’s voice I heard. I turned my back and saw there was a doctor there and three nurses.

“He’s obviously having a seizure, you moron. Do something about this! If I’m not just an intern I’ll do the defibrillation on Ivan. Now, do it! Tangina, he’s had a seizure for two minutes!” cried Creed.

“Calm down, intern. I’m your senior, you might forget. Now,” the doctor stopped speaking and looked at me. “Get Mrs. De Leon out of here first. We need space.” the doctor in front of me now was so calm that it was as if the death of his patient was not with him.

My eyes widened when I saw the defibrillator machine flat line next to Ivan! No!

Creed immediately grabbed me and pulled me away from Ivan. I was just stunned while crying. I just watched the doctor perform the defibrillation on Ivan.

I sighed and there my sobs came out again. Never in my life that I imagined this! I never thought he would die in front of me.