Heart Of A Beast

~RINA~

Deya had brought me lunch, I couldn’t move I just couldn’t get the image of Jared being torn apart right in front of me.

I knew what Jared did was wrong and he deserve to be punish, but not like that, if he fucking kill people that way it means I’m no longer safe, I watch as Deya cut the apples into small pieces.

“Hand me the knife” I told her.

She look taken aback cause I hadn’t spoken two words to her ever since she walk into the room.

“Don’t be stupid. I can’t let you cut it. It’s my job” She shook her head.

“I’m not interested in cutting any apples. I’m interested in killing myself before the beast does, I am tired of living in fear everyday” I replied.

Her eyes widen “Have you gone crazy? Alpha will never kill you. Stop being such a kid, uou don’t even know the power you have over him as his Luna! the earlier you stop being a child the better” She hissed at me.

Why is she even angry? Hello! I want to kill myself not your Alpha, and I can’t even do it even if I try so what power is she talking about? Do I have the power to kill the beast? Do I want to?

“Do I have the power to kill him?”

Deya look at me before shaking her head like I was a lost case “You got a death wish? I mean the power you have on him as his mate”

“Mate?” I gasp then I remembered what Jared said then my attraction to the beast and his obviously furious expression when Maya attack me.

“I am the beast mate?” I gap at her.

Deya snorted “Of course! Didn’t you know?” She asked.

I still can’t believe it, so all this time I’m his mate and he’s treating me like trash, how dare he? Not that I have the authority to question him.

The beast is my mate.

And honestly I didn’t know what to make of that.

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After Deya left, I pick up the plates of apple she slice and begin eating them, my thought still on what Deya told me few minutes ago, I felt so dumb and stupid, I should have realize the beast is indeed my mate.

I mean he wouldn’t kill Jared for a mare nobody just to have his reputation ruined, or have me sleep in his bed, well I only did once, the thought the beast being my mate scares me a litlle, and it also send chills of forbidden excitement down my spin.

Damn him! I can’t help but to start having those forbidden thoughts about him, he had never kiss me before, so I wonder what his kissing will be like, would it be wild and demanding? Or slow and passionate? I think the first guess suit his personality most.

I blush frowning at the apples! I shouldn’t even be excited! I fact I’m more worried, he hasn’t touch me except for the spanking he gave me the other day, doesn’t he find me attractive and desirable? Does he like blondie? Maya appearance flash through my head.

Whatever that push me into doing whatever I’m about to do, I don’t know or perhaps after discovering my position in his life gave me the courage.

I rung the servant quarters and I maid I have never seen hurried into the room, she look so uneasy but seeing I’m the one that rung, she calmed down immediately.

“Can you get me a blond dye please?” I asked.

She nodded and went away, I waited for few more minutes before she showed up again with the dye, I hurried into the shower, did my business and dye my hair.

I look blonde and not that bad but still not as pretty has Maya I gave up, I went into the waredrop, to my surprise the clothes Damien seems to be angry about had been dispose and replaced.

A pick a plain white top and a jean, quickly change into it and went back to my apple, I suddenly heard foot steps approaching and few seconds later the door was opened to reveal the beast himself.

Standing so tall, so powerful and dangerously handsome, he scan the room until his eyes landed on me, God I wanted to disappear, I’m beginning to regret my decision about dying my hair.

“What the bloody hell?” He demanded his gaze had gone dark.

Whoa I guess he doesn’t like me impersonating his favorite pet I stood up, taking several steps back.

“I’m sorry… but I can explain” I pleaded.

“Go wash that damn stuff right away! I don’t want to see it” He snarled, gosh does he has to make his feelings so insulting clear?

I felt a stab of pain in my chest and against my will I was almost on the verge of crying, no I can’t cry, I’m his mate for crying out loud. I’m no bloody servant.

I glance at him, he has a frown on his face now, he had obviously listened to my thought.

“Well, I don’t feel like washing anything off” I reported.

He look at me shocked then his gaze harden. “Until you wash that damn thing off! I won’t take a second look at you!” He threatened.

“I don’t care” I lied.

He said nothing, just walk past me and into the room, I sighs relieved, I thought he was going to spank me or throw me across the room as usual, maybe he meant the threat. I don’t think so.

I snorted, it my hair for crying out loud and I can fucking do whatever I want with it.

I went back to eating my apple, I decided to take a short trip down the kitchen knowing Maya would likely be there, I haven’t seen her around ever since the incident, maybe there’s something in or about her that I’m lacking.

The kitchen wasn’t buzzy when I walk in, I sight Maya and Clara where they usually sit discussing.

“Can I get a cup of coffee?” I asked one of the maid.

“Of course” She replied.

Clara and Maya just stare at me, I wanted them to keep talking maybe I’d find out something before I leave but sadly all they do is stare at me.

“All done” The maid announced giving me the cup of coffee, after mumbling a thank you to her, I hurried back to my room— the room I obviously share with the beast of course.

He can’t order me on what to do with my fucking hair, I thought angrily slipping my tea, someone knock, I rolled my eyes and told the person to come in, thinking it was a servant.

My eyes nearly pop out if thier socket when a lady walks in, her hair was brown and curly, and it looks as if she just walk out of a magazine, wearing a short red dress and red heels, even her lipstick was red.

I evied her beauty here I was thinking Maya was pretty but this is the real definition of beauty.

She stare at me for few seconds probably trying to guess who I am before I could ask her, her name and what she wants, the beast walk out if his room smirking at her.

“I sniff your scent… knew it was you immediately” He said wrapping an arm around her waist.

Her lips curve into a sensual smile, she rub his chest then went on a tip toe and kiss him.

I just stood there shell shock, it feels as if someone was trying to squeeze tiny needles into my body, the pain made me gasp for breath.

Why they kiss like long lost lovers, I just stood there battling with pain, finally they pull apart, his hand still on her waist he frown at me.

“Get us something to drink from the kitchen a brandy” He ordered then lead the girl towards his room.

She offered me a smile as she walk past and I wanted to wipe that smile off her face, I shouldn’t be affected, the beast can go out with whosoever he wants, that still didn’t stop the pain I was feeling, an a tear slide down my cheek, I quickly wipe it away and went to the kitchen.

Luckily I met Deya so I told her to get the brandy for me, she did.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“Gosh, you’ve seen Fiona haven’t you” Deya teased the beast once mentioned that name.

“Who is Fiona?” I asked confused.

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Tbc.