He Got Me Pregnant

Chapter 25: Traumas of Life

The shoot is starting already. Because I wanted this to be over as soon as possible, I did what it takes

to make everything fast.

There were no retakes and that's what I really want.

After the shoot, I went back to my cabin to take a rest. They were editing the pics and we will have a

party tonight but I am not in the mood because I don't want to see him again.

I grabbed my phone and dialled my babies back on Nevada. They are my aid, my vitamins, my

strength. And it hurts me so much.

It hurts so much. Why does it has to be this complicated?

“Moma.” My babies greeted in chorus.

I only smiled; this isn't video call so they can't see the tears streaming on my face.

I hate this fuck. I don't really want this.

“Moma we miss you, when are you coming home?”

I sighed, hearing their voices right now is making me remember what I just read earlier. Their daddy's

going to have another baby. They will have...a sibling from another mother.

Even though my family treated me like that I still grew up with them happily. They build an impression

that a family should be perfect, should be happy and complete.

But right now, I think I'm really a failure and I deserve to be treated like that. I can't even give my

children happiness of having a complete family.

“I will come back soon, loves.” I whispered softly.

I already took a bath after my last shoot. I am just lying in the bed, bare and sad from what is

happening. I don't think I can continue hurting him now when I don't even want to see his face again.

He doesn't know, Neysha. He doesn't know that you were pregnant.

Then why did he fucking whispered that he loves me? He doesn't deserve to know about my children

unless he fixes his shit.

He's still the reason why I became like this. Every time I remember how he suddenly vanished years

ago is making my veins even more angry.

I wanted to tell him that. I wanted to ask him what happened and why did he do that to me but I can't.

I'm still scared and it's so painful coming from his mouth that he left me years ago to marry Cindy.

I don't think I can survive that thing.

What if he finds out about my children and take them away from me? I don't think I can live a life

without my strengths with me.

“Moma...it's our family day tomorrow.” My baby Blue sweetly whispered.

“Uncle Julius will be the one attending okay?” I whispered.

There's silence on the other side. It took him few more seconds to talk.

“Moma why does our classmates have Mommies but they have daddies too? We have mommy too but

we have no daddy, why is that?” My baby Red asked.

I stopped for a bit. Tears were slowly building in my eyes as I bit my lower lips. My babies were now

really asking about these things. They are just 4 years old; they are just 4, this is so early for me.

“Baby, you have a daddy but he's working far that's why he can't attend.” I said.

Even though I can't see him, I know that his lifeless expression lighted.

“Really, Moma? When he is coming home? Will he play with us too?” He asked excitedly.

My tears even fall harder now. I really don't know now whether my decisions were right or not.

But one thing's for sure, they were my sweetest mistake. They gave meaning to my life.

If loving their father resulted to them, I never regretted the time I gave in myself to Daryl then.

And if I am going to turn back time, I will still do the same mistake. I would still love to have them as my

babies.

The call ended and I cried the whole night. I have no shoot tomorrow; we will just go back to the Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

company so I don't care if I will be looking so ugly.

I think I cried a drum of tears before I finally fell asleep.

The next morning, I wasn't in a mood to do anything. I just went directly to the van and didn't move

after. Just watching the beautiful scenery outside the window.

When I reached the penthouse in NPK, I went inside together with the bodyguards Daryl sent me. We

didn't really encounter after what happened because he was so busy.

I was already preparing for a yoga exercise when the door sprang opened.

Upon seeing Daryl's smiling face, my mood immediately got ruined.

“What are you doing here.” I asked and get up from my mattress.

“I missed you.” He said.

This is the first time I am seeing him this happy.

The idea of ‘I think I'm pregnant’ message of Cindy crossed my mind. Maybe he's happy because he's

going to be a father soon? I don't know why my heart felt like it was being clenched 'till it bleeds. Damn

painful.

“Get out.” I said.

His smile faded and raised both of his hands as sign of surrender.

“Chill.” He said.

I glared at him even more. I am furious, I want him gone from my sight or I'll fucking kill him right now.

I am doing yoga to relax but it seems like I got even more stress.

“Baby...” He added when he's already on the door.

“Shut the fuck up!” I shouted and closed the door angrily.

After closing, I fell down on the floor and cried.

The sobs that I have been holding is now getting free. It's painful, very painful. I don't think I can survive

from this pain.

This isn't my fight anymore. These are my children too.

I know I have no intention of making our family complete by getting Daryl but the little hope that I have

is slowly fading. My hope is slowly fading.

Totally gone. Totally over.

***End of Chapter 25