Forced by fate – Destined to be his Wife

YuZhi couldn’t stand her touch, his body on fire, his mind racing at what they had done here last night. Unable to formulate sense or reason and acting on utter pain. He caught TangShi’s wrist, hauling her off to the side so she slid away from him and tugged her hard. Spinning her against the wall before pinning her there with aggression. Catching her other free wrist and slamming both by her head as he leaned in and almost touched her nose with his. Screwing up his forehead, furrowing his brows and sniffing back the tears that were threatening to start pouring.

“Tell me you didn’t…. tell me that this isn’t how it looks. Tell me, Tang. That we can fix this because nothing happened here.” His voice broke, pleading with her for the sake of his sanity, his eyes welling up and his face crumpled. He was aching from head to foot with a unique kind of hurt that was unbearable. Every ounce of pain he had ever known in his life, his losses, his sorrows, didn’t even have a scratch on the torment he felt in this moment or the way looking into her eyes shredded the last ounces of hope as her sadness ate him alive.

“I can’t…. I don’t know. I can’t tell you something that might be a lie. I honestly don’t know what I did. I’m sorry… I’m really sorry, I never wanted anything like this to happen.” TangShi began to cry too, wracking her brain, praying she could figure this out and hoping she only slept here and nothing else. “Rong please, what happened? Tell me nothing happened between us.” She turned her head to him, begging with pleading eyes to save her from this nightmare but YuZhi snapped, letting go of one wrist and caught her chin, yanking her face back to his so she wouldn’t look at that fucking prick. Seething with possessiveness and unable to stand her looking his way or making eye contact with him.

“What do you think happened? We got drunk, you were all over me and we somehow ended up here together. I can barely remember the how, but it was a memorable night if flashbacks are accurate.” He snorted an attempt at a laugh through his blood and saliva, his nose broken his eyes swelling. Slumped down on the floor cradling his ribs and coughing on phlegm but he felt it was all worth it. Able to ignore the pain as he swelled with satisfaction that YuZhi would never forgive this.

YuZhi erupted once more, his fury surging out like a volcano exploding and punched the wall right by her head, hurting his knuckles in the process and leaving a dent in the drywall. Scaring the crap out of her so she flinched away, and he dropped his hold on her, rubbing his hands across his face to control the wave of exothermic fury. If he let loose he knew he would possibly commit murder here right now. Unable to function at all or think straight when all he could see in his mind’s eye was her and him together. Everything was ruined, and his happy existence of an hour ago was replaced with devastation at finding her here like this.

“How could you?” It was a broken whisper, his voice trembling noticeably even if it was almost inaudible. His body shaking with adrenalin. Aimed into her ear as he slumped into the wall resting his forehead over her shoulder without touching her, unable to keep his body up as he sagged. Closing her in and caging her even though being near to her was a unique type of torture for him.

YuZhi felt like he was dying, and as much as he wanted to drag her out of here and somehow wipe this away, he couldn’t bear himself to touch her anymore. He couldn’t ignore or deny this. She was tainted, she had ruined what they had, and not who he thought she was. His heart was shredding with every beat it took and his lungs deflating making it hard to breathe. Suffocating him slowly and yet her scent swirled around him to the point he wanted to rip out his own ability to smell anymore.

“I’m sorry…YuZhi…I don’t..” TangShi wept, trying to grab onto him to cling on with fumbling fingers but he slapped her hands away and pulled back, putting distance between them. Locking a glare on her face and furrowing his brow as a deathly look crossed his brow and made her shudder at the change in him. Reverting to that cold and aloof him she had met so long ago when they first married, seeing him recoil behind that wall he had spent years building.

“You can’t fix this…… you can’t undo what you’ve fucking done.” He bit on his lower lip to stop a new slew of tears and turned to Rong Cai and his pathetic form on the floor. “If I ever see you again, I’ll fucking kill you.” He shoved him with his foot, pushing him over and eliciting a groan from the bag of bruised bones, and then turned back to TangShi with renewed venom and a stronger biting tone.

“As for you …. go home, pack your shit and get out. I won’t be back until you’re out of my life. This, us… we’re done.” It was a snarl, pushed through his inner agony, his eyes red with the pain of what she’d done to them and his mind in turmoil. He only knew how to help himself by pushing away all sources of pain and anguish and she was now the biggest part of it. He would cut her out, even if it meant cutting his own heart out and tossing it away. Screw the contract, screw the PR plans and their marriage, he couldn’t go back from this.

“YuZhi, don’t. I love you. I don’t know why I ….. this doesn’t make sense. I wouldn’t…” TangShi begged him, through sobbing weeps. Unable to stop reaching for him like a broken child needing their security.

“You fucking did!” he screamed at her, leaning into her face and expressing the surge of hatred he never knew he could possess. At the one person he loved most in the world as venom began to grow to shield him from her being able to cause any more harm.

TangShi trembled cowering down, afraid of him like this and wiped the tears from her face with the back of her hand even if it was pointless. Unable to look him in the eye with the way he was glaring at her and shuddered as her own heart clenched in pain. She knew he didn’t mean it, but she didn’t know how to fix this. She could understand his anger, his doubt, his agony. She was disgusted with herself if she did what it seemed like she did.

“I love you.” She whispered in sorrow, clutching her own body tight and wishing she could undo all of this. Wishing she could go back to yesterday and could change all of it.

“You love me? Really? Or maybe you just loved what I could give you and it wasn’t about me at all. Look around, seems he can take care of you equally well.” YuZhi spat it at her, throwing his hands up and spanning them around the room making a snort laugh sound as though he was in disbelief. “Doesn’t really leave much room for doubt though does it, Tang? You can fucking have him. I won’t ever touch you again.”

YuZhi pulled of his ring from the engagement party and tossed it onto the bed, watching it bounce and get lost in the folds and creases, somehow symbolizing his feelings for her. Simmering over all those doubts and gut feelings back from day one that Rong Cai was someone he should worry about and getting the wrong conclusion. Staring at the bed which was in the same disarray as the room and a reminder of what a cheating bitch he was throwing away. He could never forgive this.

“Thank your new boyfriend for texting me at the airport to come pick you up, from your own fucking cell. I thought it was Linlin, but I see now this is what he wanted. Good luck to you, hope you’re happy with him and Karma doesn’t bite your ass the way it just did mine for hurting Rhea. This somehow feels like poetic justice. I should thank him for saving me years of blind love for a girl that wasn’t worth it.” He ground it out through gritted teeth, taking one last sweeping look around the room and at her, to commit this sin to memory so he would never weaken.

He turned and stormed towards the door, heaving in breath in an attempt to keep moving. His body felt like it was shutting down as every step got heavier and more painful. Regret and doubt cloying at him, but he knew he had to be strong. He never really knew her if this was who she could be.

TangShi squealed, running after him and made a grab for his arm, tears choking her and hysteria twisting her organs into a chaotic mess, and she couldn’t think straight. Desperate to hold onto him.

“Don’t…. Don’t…. YuZhi, please, don’t.” She begged and then fell when YuZhi ripped her hand off and tossed it back, the force of his rejection making her stumble backwards and she landed on the floor with a thump that bruised her ass and thigh. Gazing up at him in helplessness as her world crumbled around her. Her face soaked with streaming tears, her heart broken and her mind fragmented. She crawled to him as he stopped in the open doorway which had been like that this whole time. Passing his beaten opponent who was still huddled on the floor, unable to look up, and spitting out blood. YuZhi took one look back at her committing that drenched face and doe eyes to memory.Copyright by Nôv/elDrama.Org.

“Don’t be this pathetic. You make me sick.” He snarled at her limp form on the floor, blotting out his need to pick her up. Pushing away the pain seeing her broken like this caused him and hated that even after this his heart still wanted to love and protect her. YuZhi swallowed hard, pulled all the stubborn and will power he possessed from deep down, mustering a strength he barely had and walked out, slamming the door shut behind him without a single look back.