Enough For Him

“Now you’ve gone and done it,” Liz said after Fran calmed down. I paused, what is she angry for now.

Liz is super confusing sometimes.

“what,” Fran asked.

“Leon’s ego has doubled in size knowing that there was a reason you guys never, you know” damn right beautiful.

Fran looked at me and saw the bite eating grin.

“oh please, you’re not even that good looking”

My mouth hung in shock as Fran simply left me there wondering what the hell she meant by that, I am handsome alright.

“There There” Liz mocked me as she patted my back like I did to Fran. Liz couldn’t even be bothered to contain the laughter coming out of her mouth as she said this.

Friday 23rd April Ever since I met Leon all those years ago he was someone I trusted, who I can speak about anything to. We laughed, cried and had fun just like any strong friendship.

He cheated on me for Christ sake and yet here I am staring at the wedding dress that I spend a ridiculous amount of Money on. I grew up not really excited about a grand wedding, but Leon made me excited.

We planned to get married at this really beautiful venue and I was staying at a nearby hotel in the penthouse room whilst Leon was at a completely different hotel. Something about there being a chance of bumping into eachother before the wedding.

“Don’t tell me your doubting him again, he’s made sure to make this day so special for you Liz have a little respect will you” My brother practixally shouted at me in frustration.

Well hello to you too brother.

Hold on a minute.

” I never wanted it to be all about me, firstly” I’ve known for a long time that Leon has wanted to marry me, to create a bond to finally call me his wife. I want this day to be as much about him than it is me.

He groaned at my silence ” I just knew this was going to happen. How many times do we have to tell you that Leon loves you. He made some mistakes, but I truly believe that he will never make it again and that’s taken me years to finally admit you know”

Hold on a minute. Does he truly think I am doubting. I told mom I was nervous, and this is the result I get, doubt. Theres not a doubting bone in my body when it comes to Leon right now.

How they came to this. Is beyond me.

“Let me in right now, you’re not stopping me from talking some sense into her” my eyes widened hearing my bestfriend from outside. This time it wasn’t even Hailey, I managed to keep her away from me whilst I got ready.

Jess was let inside and as she held onto a small book of some sorts. Her hair and makeup was completely done with the only thing left to do was put on her bridesaid dress. I spent hours in a bridal store choosing the perfect dress that me and Leon would want.

” only you would wait until the morning to start doubting honestly woman are you trying to give me a stroke” she huffed as she jumped on my bed setting the purple book down on the bed.

My eyes fixed on the book. She still had it.

” since Hailey can’t be here she said that this book might knock some sense into you” she didn’t even wait for me until she started turning the pages like a mad woman.

This was my journal. I had been under the impression this book was buried somewhere in my dad’s attic but low and behold it’s here in front of my eyes.

” you’ve loved Leon ever since this day. Look you wrote him in here with a bazzilion love hearts surrounding him and you want to tell me youre scared of tying the knot. I honestly don’t know what the man can do to prove to you that he is sorry and most importantly that he loves you and will not fuck up again” I sense a lot of anger coming from her.

Her eyes looked extremely angry and it takes a lot to make jess this angry which you could tell wasn’t that often. Why would I prefer Hailey here right now, she was normally really good at reading me.Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

But not today.

I was about to end this disaster but hard knocks beating against the door stopped me.

“Charlize”

Oh, come on. His knocks became harder, loud enough to wake up the whole floor.

” you didn’t tell him right? ” I cast a very nervous glance to my best friend.

She shook her head almost violently. ” I swear, I think it might have been your mom” she answered.

Confirming my own thoughts.

What else is my own mother saying. She doesn’t even know what I’m stressing about. It’s like I’m not allowed to be nervous on my wedding day.

” I can’t go out to him like this. Look at me Jess ” I almost shouted but I didn’t because I didn’t want Leon to hear me.

she spoke to him through the door, “he won’t leave if you stay quiet” well I know that.

“Jess what’s going on” he spoke through the door.

I looked at Jess, pleading with her to save me.

” just some wedding day nerves you know the ones” she answered her answer not being very believable.

Knowing Leon , he would we right through it.

” and the real reason ”

Told you.

Jess looked at the door in disbelief.

“Lizzy, Baby speak to me ”

He said through the door his voice so gentle I think Jess would have melted.

She gave me one look and I could read it instantly. It said. You’re on your own. I Knew it.