THIRTY-SEVEN
“Is she the reason, Dale? You pushed me because of her?” Lauren pointed to Carmona and I can see the anger on her face.
“Stop making a scene, Lauren. You don’t know everything.”
“I know everything, you suddenly change because of her.”
“Lauren, Hija, it’s not what you—–.”
“Stop calling my name. You whore.”
“Can you stop!” I said annoyed her and grabbed her by the arm.
“Why? Is it because of that woman? Is it because of her, Dale? Is it because you like what she does to you more than what we do? Do you miss her?”
“Stop!”
“I won’t stop. You miss what she did, right?”
“Do you think I’m that, huh?” I washed my face with my palm because of my irritation. I looked at Carmona and then approached. “Thank you for your time and for clarifying everything. I wish all the best,” I said while holding back my anger because of Lauren.
“Thanks. Wish you all the best too.” I kiss her on the forehead.
Maybe she became a sinner to me. But she was also good. And now that it is clear to me why she did that, my anger seems to have disappeared. Even more and I’ve moved on. Her only mistake was that she abused and destroyed me. But I’m fine now and I want to forget everything and laugh at her so I can forgive myself for what I’ve done.
“I need to go. Always take care.” I cupped her face.
“You also.” She was holding my palm.
“That’s sweet the two of you. Obviously, someone is intervening.” I was holding Lauren’s hand to lead her outside when Carmona spoke.Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.
“Don’t hurt her, Dale. She only misunderstood everything.” But I ignored her.
“I don’t need your help. Stop acting like a saint you whore evil.”
“Stop!” Then I dragged Lauren out away from Carmona.
“Dale! Dale!” I didn’t listen to Carmona and took Lauren outside. I saw the car she used there and it looked like she was with someone. I let her go and then faced her.
“What’s wrong with you?”
“What’s wrong with me? Am I really? You dumped me then what? I can see that you are with that woman. The woman who abused you?”
“You know nothing Lauren. I just want to find out something from Carmona that’s why we met.”
“Find out? Or do you miss her?”
“What?”
“Why, do you miss her touch? Do you miss what she does? Is that why you dumped me because she was already here?”
“Stop. Saying. Nonsense.” I said with restraint.
“Why, I can do that, right? I can do it too. I wish you had told me so we would have done the same.”
“You know, I never thought you would think like that. After all, you still think of me like that, Lauren.”
“Because that’s how I feel. Because of what you did to me. You dumped me, Dale, for no reason. You can’t give me a reason because we are ok. What do you think I will think?”
“What if I tell you that your suspicions are correct.” Suddenly, her anger changed into sadness.
“Hubby?”
“Stop calling me that endearment. And yes Lauren, I missed her. I miss what Carmona does to me. The way she touches me, the way she penetrates herself. The way she punishes me. But sadly, she can’t do it because of her condition. I miss her screaming my name, the way she moans in pleasure because of me. I miss her and if I’m given a chance—-I prefer to do it again with her and not with you. Are you happy now?” Her tears fell because of what I said.
“We’re done, we’re over, Lauren. And don’t act like a real wife because you’re not. You are only my wife on paper, and not in my heart. If anything happens to us, it’s because we both want it.”
“Why did you do this to me, Dale? Why do you like her more than me? Why, Dale?!”
“Because she is worth talking to more than you. And she didn’t judge me the way you are doing me now. You just saw us talking and you accused me a lot.”
“But you admitted it,”
“To stop you.” She didn’t answer what I said. “I told you to stay away from me, right? Be it. Don’t hang around me like a fly always following me.”
I turned around but was stopped when she suddenly hugged me. She sobbed while hugging me from behind me.
“Hubby, I miss you.” I couldn’t speak. “Please, let’s go back to the way it was before.”
Fuck! She has no idea how I missed her so damn much! She has no idea how I am longing for her every night. But I don’t want to be selfish. She can’t be happy with me.
“I don’t miss you. Let me go.”
“Why? Haven’t I been important to you?”
“It became important because I benefited from you. But your duty is done, so there is no reason to miss you.”
I removed her hand but she only tightened her grip on me. Fuck, I hate this. I miss her and maybe I can’t control myself and I soften towards her.
“Hubby, please, I’m begging you, even if you don’t love me anymore, just let me love you. Just let me be by your side and serve you. Let’s get things back to normal, hubby. I’m ok there as long as I’m with you. Even without love from you. Just let me stay.”
I didn’t answer. I held her hand that was hugging me. I miss holding her hands. I miss her and hug her. I miss kissing her. I miss all of her.
“Hubby.”
But my longing for her is not enough to be a reason to go back to her. I don’t do it for myself. I do it for her. For her own good. She will also understand me and move on.
I used force to remove her hand. Her grip tightened but eventually, I removed it too. I faced her and held her by both arms.
“Listen, once for all, listen. I’m doing this for you, not for me. You will not be happy with me. I don’t love you and I can’t love you. Let go and be happy.”
“I know, I know you love me too. I know I have a place in your heart. I don’t believe that I am nothing because you make me feel different. I feel different.”
“What you’ve felt is not what I feel. You just misunderstood my action. Move on. One of these days, the annulment will arrive. Sign it so you will be free.”
“I won’t sign anything.”
“Don’t be stubborn, Lauren.”
“I won’t sign anything.”
“You will be destroyed if you are stubborn.”
“Hubby.”
“Not only you but also Hendrick. Don’t dare. I can destroy you. Clearly, we are a couple and I can hire someone to testify that you two have a relationship. Not only you will be embarrassed but also people around you.”
“Why are you doing this hubby?”
“Because I want this.”
But I didn’t expect what she did next. Lauren kneeled while holding my leg.
“I just want you to let me be by your side even if I don’t get any love from you.”
“You’re only making it harder for yourself.” And I forcefully removed her hand. “I don’t feel sorry for you because you just gave me more reason to dislike you. If you don’t want anyone to include in our problem. Just sign the annulment and everything will be ok.”
She cried one after another so I left her. I don’t want to see her cry and I might not be able to handle it and get carried away. I met the driver who got out of the car. She just looked at me and I looked at her and she immediately bowed.
When I got into the car I looked at her. Her driver was helping her to stand up. I hit the steering wheel and punched one after another. I’ll leave the place because I don’t want to see her anymore.
I feel sorry for her. But I don’t feel sorry for her enough to go back to her. She will also hate and fear me. Above all, she will not be happy with me.
I need to talk to dad. He has to help me to finalize the annulment. ASAP!