SIXTY-TWO
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‘Why my husband is so handsome and good-looking?’
I am thrilled while looking at my husband who is still sleeping. He fell asleep from exhaustion and was still drunk. Then he was still hurt because of me. I played with his face and then kissed him on the cheek.
I never thought I would be so passionate about him. When dad told me that I needed to get married I thought he was referring to Hendrick. Because he’s my boyfriend so I should marry him. But suddenly he will say something else that I need to marry other people. So how come I will marry someone I don’t know? I thought it was only in movies and books, but arranged marriages exist in reality.
I don’t want to but dad insisted. They say ‘mother knows best,’ and because I don’t have a mommy, it’s ‘daddy knows best.’ So I agreed because I know daddy knows what’s best for me and he knows better.
I don’t like Dwayne Dale at first. But I love to be with him because he is kind and caring. He took care of me until I found myself that I love him more than I love my boyfriend.”I love you,” I whisper to my husband’s ear. I was thrilled while saying that while looking at him. He’s so handsome. He is the most handsome man I have ever seen. Of course, he is the love of my life.
“I love you so much,” I repeated.
“And I love you more.” My eyes widened when he answered. And even though his eyes s closed his eyes, he was smiling. “I love you more than you’ll ever know, wife.” And he opened his eyes.
“Hubby?” I feel my cheeks heat up. I just want to sink into bed in shame. Because I thought he was asleep, but he is just pretending asleep.
“Are you done raping me on your mind, wife?”
“W-what rape? N-no way. Hubby!” I was shocked when he suddenly moved and was now on top of me.
“I thought it was a dream, and I’m hallucinating last night. It turned out that everything happened and you told me that you love me. Does it mean that whatever happened last night is real and I wasn’t hallucinating?” I feel my body gets hot and—and I feel wet. Eeee, it’s embarrassing.
“N-no, no. Nothing happened to us last night.” But he laughed out loud. “What’s funny?”
“Did I say that something happened to us? I am asking if what happened is real, but I didn’t say what it is.” I’m stupid. I was also caught in my own mouth. Why is he suddenly catching up?
“Hubby.”
“Hmm?”
“I remember everything.”
“What?” He gets up and also helps me sit. “What do you mean?”
“I remember everything. I no longer have amnesia.”
“H-how?” I swallowed. I don’t know if I should say. Because yes. I think I enjoyed it so much that my brain suddenly woke up.
“W-what, ah—-.”
“Tell me, wife. Is it true?”
“Hmph.” Then I nodded.
“But how?”
“Ah—-”
“Wife, tell me.”I was ashamed to tell him the reason why my memory came back. Honestly. My memories came back last night. When we did it. At first, the feeling is quite familiar. And while we were doing that, my memory slowly came back. And when I reach my ——that’s all, I remember everything.
I remember that I loved him before the accident happened. I also remembered that I had already broken up with Hendrick in the car. He couldn’t accept it and just wanted us both to die and crashed the car. But I forgave him because of course he is still important to me.
Before we had an accident, I was thinking about Hendrick and our relationship that had to end. I’m thinking what if Dale and I never met? Will I still love Hendrick? Can we be happy? What if I just break up Hendrick and focused on Dale or I just didn’t agree to get married?
I had a lot of what-ifs that night because I felt sorry for Hendrick. Because I know that even if he can’t fight our relationship, he loves me. I feel sorry for him but I have to do it because I love Dale more than him and I want to take our marriage seriously. Which it really should be because we are husband and wife.
But sadly, I lost my memories. I woke up and I forgot my husband. But even though I don’t remember anything, I know he was important to me. Although I am too excited about Hendrick’s actions, I still long for something. Something that I know what is.
You know that feeling that your long-time dream has come true but you’re still looking for something? Are you still not satisfied and missing something? That’s how I feel.
And I found that it was Dale’s love. My husband’s love. Even though I don’t remember that I loved him and he loves me, I want him to love me. I want him to say he loves me even though I’m not sure what we have. I want us to make love and I’m confused about why I feel that way.
I admit that I also doubted him when something happened to Aunt Carmona. And I feel guilty. When he got angry with me I felt like I couldn’t breathe because of the pain.
I’m in pain and I don’t know why. Until I realized that I love him. I love my husband——for the second time. So I decided to end my relationship with Hendrick.
Last night, he asked me to marry him and file the annulment. He asks me to stay with him and leaves Dale. But I rejected his offer, and I broke up with him without any hesitation.
I know I hurt him. But that’s the right thing to do. To stay with my husband. To love him until the end because that’s what I really feel. And for Hendrick, I wish him happiness. Happiness with his child or to whoever.
I saw Dale’s wide smile. It’s like winning the jackpot. Of course, he’s really a jackpot for me.
“I wish I had raped you before, we won’t take this long.”
“I just waited, you’re slow,” I whispered.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“But wife, is what you said true?”
“Which?”
“That you loved me before the accident happened?”
“Yeah, didn’t we talk that I was going to break up with him so I met?”
“But Hendrick told me that you did not love me and you told him that you only used me. He told me a lot of things.”
“Aunt Mona told him everything, hubby. Honestly, Hendrick did not know that something was happening to us. He told me last night that he knew I loved you even then because you said something was going on between us. He said he was just riding on what you said and he wanted you to be disappointed in me so that I would come back to him. But sadly, he did not win. Because our love is stronger than he thought. It’s easy for Hendrick to think of a solution to every situation, so every time you say something, he has an answer that he thinks can make you disappoint.”
“He was unlucky and didn’t succeed. But nice try. I almost believed and questioned your love. Does he also have a point that if you loved me why did you forget? That’s why I thought too.”
“Hubby, now that my memory has returned. Can we continue this? Can we talk about our relationship?”
“What do you want to talk about? Because if you ask me, I’m determined not to let you go and be my wife forever.”
“Me too.”
“Even if I have something I can’t give? You know what I mean.”
“Even if it’s just the two of us forever. Lalat, kiki, and Tintin were there. Let them multiply so that we have many grandchildren.”
“Wife.”
“I love you hubby, as long as I’m with you, even if it’s just the two of us together, I’m happy.” She bowed and pulled me closer to him. “I mean it, hubby. You’re the one I want to be with if only we can have a family.”
I mean it, I know he’s not ready and I’m not going to force him because what he went through wasn’t that easy. I will not force him to confess to me about his son either. I will wait for him to be ready to tell me about him. And I will wait for him to be ready to have a child. But if not it’s ok. We can be fur parents. I can’t force mine because he is struggling. I don’t want him to suffer because I don’t want him to be hurt.
Yes, I know that he has a child and how his child was born. Dylan told me, and I even met a girl name, Lindsay. We talked about Dale and she’s nice. She wished us happiness and asked me to love Dale and understand him. Because he is just a victim of the situation and unexpected events.
From what I learned about my husband, I can only say one thing—-what he went through was not easy and he needs someone who can understand him. So I won’t force him to do things he doesn’t want.
What I want is that him to be sure of his decision and not forced. I want him to be happy. What I like is that he is not forced. Everything he does is voluntary to make him happy. Because when he’s happy, I’m happy too.
Understanding, and respecting his decision because apart from love, that’s all I can give him. I don’t have anything with me that I can offer to him aside from that. And I will not invade his privacy. I will prove to him that I am a good wife and deserve to be his partner forever.
“Thank you for coming into my life, wife.”
“Thank you for accepting me, hubby.”
“Thank you for staying, wife.”
“I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t love you, hubby.” He hugged me tightly while crying in my arms.
‘I will always be here for you, hubby.’