Chapter 79 – His burden
Nicholas POV
AT NIGHT
I waited on the bed patiently and after thirty minutes, Monica still wasn’t back in the room. She had taken Mason and Macy to their room earlier on and still wasn’t back.
I abruptly got off the bed and walked to the kids’ room to see Monica trying to put the kids to sleep. “Are they sleeping already?” I whispered in her ears softly as I placed a kiss on her cheeks
“Almost there” she uttered calmly, her voice barely above a whisper. She didn’t want the kids waking up back and crying again.
I never knew kids were a lot of work. Monica barely has time for herself and sometimes spends the whole day taking care of the kids. When I heard from the doctor that Monica had delivered twins, I was so glad but now seeing the stress they’re putting her through, I just wished they weren’t two kids but just one.
“I think they’re fast asleep now” I uttered, noticing the kid’s steady breath.
Monica sighed in relief as she gently stood up from the stool she previously sat on and gently tiptoed, not intending to wake the kids up again.
I turned around and walked out of the kid’s room with Monica tiptoeing behind me. She slowly closed the door and crashed on me gently and I knew she was exhausted.
I carried her in bridal style and she rested her head on my shoulder with her right hand around my neck. We got to the room and I gently placed her on the bed.
She smiled weakly as she looked at me as I went round the bed and climbed on it, ensuring the duvet was covering our bodies. She shifted closer to me and placed her head on my chest.
“I know what you did,” she said, her voice low and laced with exhaustion.
“What did I do?” I asked in confusion and curiosity
“You kissed me to make Ethan jealous,” she said, raising her head so her gaze was on me.
“Of course I did. I wanted him to know his place. I didn’t like the way he was looking my my stuff” I uttered.
“What stuff? You’re not serious Nicholas” Monica uttered, smiling in amusement.
“Of course I am. You’re mine and so is everything that is on your body. Everything belongs to me”
“And you are mine?” She asked, raising one of her eyebrow
“Yes, I am yours so is everything that is on me even my little man is aware that he belongs to you” I uttered winking at her and she snuggled in my embrace, hiding her flushed face on my chest. “Do you like Mia?” I asked, interested to know what she thought about Mia.
Mia seemed off and I just didn’t like her. Though she was my sister-in-law there was something off and dangerous about her and I knew I was right.
“No I don’t like her and I don’t trust her. I don’t even like the fact that our son is getting closer and more comfortable with them by day. I’m relieved that Macy is still not getting along with them”
“But I pity Ethan” I uttered, remembering the smiles he has worn on his face this past few weeks that he has been coming to see the kids.
“Yes, I pity him too. He wants to get along with the kids and know them better but I still don’t trust that snake of a sister who is always with him. Mia is very cunning and manipulative” Monica uttered and I could sense the dislike she had for Mia.
My phone buzzed loudly from the table and that made us bed our conversation as I turned to the bed lamp and took up my phone.
“Hello,” I said.
“Hello sir, we still haven’t found the woman from that night yet. The receptionist who used to work at the hotel had retired and moved out of the country so we still haven’t spoken to her to get information from her” my private investigator said from the other end of the line.
“That’s none of my business famous. I gave you a simple job and that is to find her” I uttered then removed the phone from my ears as I hung up.
“What’s the problem?” Monica asked worriedly, a little frown on her face as she raised her head and stared at me.
“It’s nothing” I uttered, forcing a smile on my lips
Monica narrowed her eyes as she stared at me intently “There’s something and I know it. You’re keeping something from me and I don’t like that. We aren’t supposed to hide anything from each other remember?” She said, slightly upset that I didn’t want to say anything.
I sighed as I struggled within me to tell her the truth. This is something I’ve been doing even before I met Monica and it’s something I didn’t want anyone to find out.
“It’s something I did in the past honey and I’m trying to correct it,” I said
“And what’s that?” she asked, her voice now sharp and no longer low
“Let’s just forget about it. I don’t want to talk about it” I uttered, trying to push the discussion aside but Monica wasn’t letting go.NôvelDrama.Org owns © this.
“Tell me or I’ll go and sleep in the kids’ room” she threatened and I sighed in exhaustion.
“Fine” I uttered “I raped someone in the past and I’m currently looking for her,” I said, dropping the bombshell.
“You did what?” Monica yelled, her eyes widened “Nicholas how could you do such a thing?”
“It wasn’t my fault honey. You’ve got to believe me. I was drugged that night and I saw her in my room. I could hold myself and I raped her”
“So what are you trying to do now?” She asked her eyes on my phone.
“I’m trying to find her. I just want to apologize. I don’t know who she was or where she lives but I know that I feel guilty whenever I remember that incident and I just want to make sure she is fine and even compensate her” I uttered, guilt washing over me as I remembered her struggles of that night.
“Money isn’t everything Nicholas. She must’ve gone through a lot of trauma. I’m sure she is sad and even may be pregnant” Monica said, making the guilt I felt increase drastically “Do you have an idea of who drugged you?”
“No, I don’t. I have no idea but I suspect Greg” I said.
“Why?” Monica asked.
“Because this happened a day before my father wanted to select who would take over Sterling’s group. I’m sure he wanted to drug me so that my father would find me disappointing and unworthy” I explained and Monica sighed.
“Do you have any evidence?” She asked and I fell mute. This was the problem. I didn’t have any evidence and still couldn’t find the lady I slept with that night.
I’ve been searching for her for almost a year now and yet nothing. “I’m sorry about what I did. I hope you don’t hate me for it. It wasn’t intentional” I said, looking at Monica whose eyes were laced with sadness.
“I don’t hate you honey and I know you didn’t do this intentionally but I want us to find out who she is and apologize to her. Is that okay?”
I nodded my head, giving her a positive reply and my eyes widened when she kissed me on my lips for just a short time. ” I can never hate you for any reason. Keep that in mind” she said as she smiled at me lovingly then rested her head on my chest again.
Sharing this burden with her was very difficult but I don’t regret sharing it with her. Raping that lady a year and some months ago was a huge mistake and I was ready to amend my past. I could stand everyone hating me but I don’t think I’ll ever survive if Monica hates me. She was anything and everything I could ever wish in a woman and I love her dearly.