Novel Square
Chapter 42
As I sat at the dinner table, I couldn’t shake off the feeling of unease. It was like my stomach was twisted into knots, and my mind was racing with thoughts. I knew what the though were about but it felt like a sin to say what it was even though it was just me in my head. It felt like a violation.
I wasn’t supposed to be thinking about her not to talk of letting her cloud all my thoughts and stop me from doing one of the things that I knew how to do best. I just didn’t get it. I really thought I was past all this shit, I mean I’d slept with the best of women, women who had sex with me more than I had sex with them so I didn’t get why the tiny a**** b**h wouldn’t leave my damn mind. She wasn’t even that good.
She did taste like heaven and sucked good too but I’d gotten all that before! Maybe it was the sound of her moans that were stuck in my head and playing nom stop like a broken record.
I tried to focus on my food, but it tasted like cardboard, and I couldn’t help but wonder where she was. Perhaps I should be thinking about hiring more chefs, why can’t they cook something to get if mind off things? I heard that food were therapeutic these days, the food in front of me was not helping at all!
“Hey, Aston, what’s wrong?” Mara asked, noticing my distraction and I realized that I was actually distracted because I didn’t know when she got here. She was barely covered in the skimpy back dress that she put on and I had to admit that she did look good but it wasn’t all that exciting because when was she never almost naked?
“Nothing, just a bit tired.” I replied, trying to brush it off because I didn’t want any long chats with her or any chats with her at all, she was always so difficult to talk to. Listening to her would sometimes threaten to make it ears bleed and to top all it off, she was persistent. She was always all up in my face.
I was far from tired. I was restless, and my mind was consumed by thoughts of Kira. I thought about the night we spent together, and how I couldn’t stop thinking about her since then, It was like she had taken over my brain, and I couldn’t shake her off
I admitted to myself that I knew she was going to be a problem for me since I set my eyes on her. I mean, she was Dax’s mate, and I hated him with a passion. But there was something about Kira that drew me in, like a moth to a flame. Deep down. I knew she was always at the back of my head but having it all pronounced like this and by head about to explode feels horrible.
I wasn’t supposed to feel horrible. Not by a mere s**e that I brought in to my house myself. Not at all! I couldn’t let myself be so weak. There was no space for that!
I really should have listened to myself and gotten rid of her when I had the chance. It seemed impossible at the time that anything would happen between us, her being Dax’s mate and all. I hated Dax. I still did. With even more passion so why would something that had his mark on turn me on instead of repulse me?!
I tried so hard to avoid her and not do anything I would regret but I wasn’t exactly Popular for holding back and I sure didn’t hold back that night. After finally giving in to the pressing urge and getting a taste of her, I wanted more. I wanted to hold her, kiss her, and make her mine. But I knew it was wrong. She was a friend of my enemy which made her my enemy too. and I was supposed to hate her so why was she clouding my mind?
As I sat at the dinner table, I couldn’t help but wonder where she was. I hadn’t seen her all day, and it was like my wolf was growling at me, urging me to find her.
“Mara, have you seen Kira?” I asked, trying to sound nonchalant but I think my voice was failing me.
“No, I haven’t seen her since this morning,” she replied, looking at me with a curious expression but it was quick to disappear from her face. She inched her chair towards mine and tilted her boobs until they were all up in my face.
I knew what she was doing. I didn’t know why though. She was always so realized about how we were, what was she trying to – make a move now.
Go find her and bring her here,” I said and Mara looked a little displeased by my decision but I couldn’t care less.Content is property © NôvelDrama.Org.
“What do you need the maid for? You have everything you need right here.” She said in a seductive tone and brought her lips to mine, kissing me softly and slowly. Memories of my night with Kira came flashing back and I had to pull away.
“Aston, what’s going on?” Mara asked, looking concerned and a little p**ed too.
I just need to find Kira, okay?” I replied, trying to brush her off
“You don’t need to find her!” she half yelled and I was getting p**ed that she thought she could control me.
“She‘s my personal maid! I will get her whenever I want! And you don’t tell me what to do!” I reminded her and her face twisted into a frown
When the guard returned, revealing that Kira was nowhere to be found, I felt a pang of panic. Where was she? And why hád she disappeared?
“Aston, maybe she ran away,” Mara suggested, trying to annoy me even more than I already was.
But I knew Kira wouldn’t dare attempt it. She was too scared, too timid. Something was wrong, and I needed to find out what
it was
I gazed at the untouched plate of food in front of me, my mind racing as a knot of unease formed in the pit of my stomach. Despite the warm glow of the candlelight and the delicate aroma of the food, I couldn’t shake the sense that something was off.
“What do you mean you can’t find her, get the hell out of here ad don’t return without her, I give you less than ten minutes!” I barked at the guard and he scurried out of the place.
Her name echoed in my mind, her image flashing across my thoughts like a haunting spectre. I had tried to ignore her, tried to pretend that I could simply dismiss her from my mind, but my efforts had been fruitless and I had to admit that.
I ran a hand through my hair, frustration mounting as I struggled to understand my own feelings. Yes, she was undeniably beautiful, her deep brown eyes and the curves of her body tempting me like a siren’s song. But there was something more, something that transcended mere physical attraction.
It was true that she looked good no matter what she wore but Mara looked good too, I knew a lot of alphas that would kill to get a taste of Mara but why!!!
I could still taste Kia on my lips, her scent still lingering on my skin like a spell. I had tried to push her away, to bury the memories of our little night beneath a mountain of logic and rationality, but the truth was undeniable: I wanted her.
It was madness, I knew that. Kira was a servant, nothing more. A distraction, a temptation that I couldn’t afford to indulge. And yet, as the shadows of the dining hall danced around me, I found myself wondering where she could be. I had purposely not sent her on any errands so I wouldn’t have to see her so where she could she possibly be?
The guard was taking too much time and I was getting impatient. With a flick of my wrist, I summoned one of the guards, entering the room with a respectful bow.
“Find Kira,” I ordered, my voice like steel. “Bring her to me. Immediately.”
The guard hesitated, his eyes flickering with uncertainty as he shifted uncomfortably under my gaze. “My Alpha,” he began, his voice hesitant. “The other servants say that they haven’t seen Kira since this morning.”
I clenched my teeth, anger rising in my chest as I struggled to maintain my composure. “Not since this morning?” I growled, voice taut with tension “What do you mean, they haven’t seen her since this morning?”
1-I don’t know, Alpha, the guard stammered, his face a mask of confusion and fear. “They said that they haven’t seen her all day, that she disappeared since yesterday after breakfast. No one knows where she is.”
The door flung open and I looked up expecting to see the guard and Kira next to him but I saw Brax instead.
“Is Kira here with you?” he asked looking around the room worriedly.
“I thought she was with you.” I said and his brows creased.
“We were supposed to have a picnic but she’s no where to be found.”