Chapter 73
“I can’t get that scene out of my head. I can’t stop thinking he was really going to fuck her! I just can’t. I feel like we are broken now, and I don’t know how to proceed. How I should act, what I should do.” Sam explained.
“Smokey loves you, I know he also loves this baby. I just don’t know what he was thinking when he took her to his room to talk. I honestly can’t understand it. But you’ll need to let him explain.” Raine replied.
“I feel like if he truly loved me, he would never have done that to me. And this isn’t the first or second time I thought something else was going on.” Sam replied.
“What do you mean?” Kim asked.
“Once I went to the clubhouse and Daisy was naked in his room when I knocked. She opened the door, and he was naked on the bed asleep.” Sam explained.
“So, I left and went to Will’s house. Then I backed out and left. I couldn’t go through with being with him. Not when Smokey had my heart.” Sam replied.
“What the fuck? What did he say?” Raine asked.
“He said that he had showered and fell asleep as he’d just got back from a run. He was waiting on me to come over, and he left the door unlocked. He said when he woke up, she was naked in his bed and he kicked her ass out of his room. And nothing happened.” Sam explained.
“And the second time?” Kim asked.
“Macy came out of his room in her bra and panties. She said he was still busy with Daisy.” Sam explained.
Did you ask him about it?” Raine asked.
“Yes. He said Macy lied and that Daisy wasn’t in his room. That they were trying to set him up to break us up. He told me if I cared to look, I would have found out for myself that she had lied.” Sam replied.
“I’m sorry, I wish I knew him well enough to say if he was telling the truth or lying.” Raine replied.
“Every time I close my eyes, I see that night over and over on repeat. Her half naked on top of him grinding into him. Him with his bulge, pants undone and shirtless. I want it out of my head! How long will it take to get it gone? I’m such a mess!” Sam cried.
“Babe, it’s just going to take time. It’s still fresh and raw. Plus, him in a coma can’t give you closure on it. You can’t move forward until you guys get to talk it out.” Raine explained.
“Why do I have such shitty luck in men? What did I ever do to deserve this?” Sam asked.
“Shit happens honey. We’ve all had our bad share of bad men. You just deal with it a move on.” Kim replied.
“Now, I want details on that hunk who is shadowing your every move!” Raine raised her brows.
“He’s nice and sweet. He has really helped me out a lot. He made sure I rest and eat and takes care of me like a father would a child. He’s been my rock to lean on.” Sam explained.
“Honey, I know you’ve got daddy issues, but that man ain’t treating you like his daughter.” Kim laughed.
“Nope! That man wants you bad. The question is, do you feel the same? But is him being here confusing you?” Raine asked.
“It’s complicated.” Sam agreed.
“Uh, huh, spill.” Raine ordered.
“I do have feelings for him but feel guilty as hell about it. Adrian is in a coma and I’m lusting after Lucas like some bitch in heat. Totally confused why I am. Does it mean me, and Smokey aren’t meant to be? If he can do that with Jo, and I can lust and want Lucas? Am I any better than he is right now?” Sam asked.
“You’re second guessing yourself. It’s these pregnancy hormones. They make you crazy and horny!” Kim explained.
“Maybe. But they are real questions I need the answers to.” Sam replied.
“Give it time. But think before you act.” Raine cautioned.
“I know.” Sam replied. “Part of me says send Lucas away as he’s too great of a temptation right now. And the other part is so thankful he’s here for his comfort is much needed. He really calms me and takes good care of me. And he hasn’t even tried anything with me.”
“Damn! Is he gay?” Kim asked.
“No, he’s not.” Raines laughed.
“How do you know?” Kim asked.
“Ah, Sam?” Raine looks nervously to Sam.
“Shit, ok fine! Adrian begged me to have a threesome with Lucas before I got pregnant. And I agreed.” Sam explained.Nôvel(D)rama.Org's content.
“Holy hell! How come I’m just now finding this out?” Kim demanded.
“I was embarrassed. Smokey has particular tastes at times.” Sam explained.
“You slut!” Kim laughed.
“Just the one time?” Kim asked.
“No.” Sam blushed.
“Get out of here! I only knew of the one time.” Raine gasped.
“SPILL!” Kim and Raine both said together.
“Well, there are rules. He could only touch me with his hands and mouth, and same for me.” Sam explained.
“Is he big?” Raines asked.
“Yup.” Sam replied.
“How were his mouth skills?” Kim asked.
“Mind blowing.” Sam replied.
“How did he compare to Smokey?” Raine asked.
“Adrian is longer but Lucas is thicker. There’s not much difference. Lucas is better with his mouth, but Adrian is better with his hands.” Sam replied.
“Ok so I want to know how a threesome works.” Kim replied.
“Multiple ways. Let’s just say both ends get attention, and no not my asshole!” Sam laughed.
“Damn girl! You get to do all the erotic shit!” Raine huffed.
“You could always research the erotic stuff and talk to Jax about it. All he can say is yes or no.” Sam replied.
“I think I will.” Raine agreed.
“Me too.” Kim agreed.
“Look I kind of feel bad comparing them. Please don’t say anything and let’s talk about something else.” Sam pleaded.
“Fine.” They both say.