Cheat With My Boyfriend Best Friend

Chapter 397 Me and My Baby

Cinder deliberately turned away. I looked at her back with tears in my eyes, and for a time, I could not say anything to refute her

That was Cinder's charm. She always managed to quickly pull away from all negative emotions and analyze the source of things sensibly

Compared to me, she was more like a pharmaceutical researcher who worked with data all the time, and I was more like an emotional artist

Thanks to the rational Cinder, I could get unreserved advice from her at every point in my life where I needed guidance

Just like at this moment, I thought carefully

about what she said and then realized that she was right. I was trying to make it up to the baby inside me from the very beginning indeed

From the moment I knew I was pregnant, I thought of my baby as myself

In Antarctica, I told Cinder that I must keep the baby, though I didn't feel well. I would keep the baby, even if it meant I had to give up Aaron and my position in TWH

I did it because I was never firmly chosen by my mother. Since she could abandon me for her career and her love life without hesitation, I could abandon my love life and even my career for my baby. Later, after moving into Aaron's villa in Berlin, I spent a lot of time decorating the baby's room on the second floorNôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.

The baby hadn't been inside me long enough for

me to know its sex. Yet it didn't matter. I chose the furnishings of the room with great enthusiasm. It didn't matter if the room was blue or pink. I just wanted to make the unformed flesh in my belly feel my unreserved love

Because it was something that I had never felt from my mother

This time, given the choice between keeping my body intact and giving my baby a chance to be born, I still chose the latter

I tried so hard to prove to myself that there was such a thing as pure and passionate motherly love in this world

"Yes, Cinder, you're right. I never thought I'd have a great child. Instead, I kept thinking about what a great mother I would be."

I pulled Cinder's sleeve, gave her my first sincere smile of the day, and told her she was right

I used to hear other women talk about their kids, some of them vain mothers. They boasted, claiming that their kids were omnipotent and practically unique geniuses in the world

I could never understand the source of their vanity even until I was pregnant, and of course, I never joined in their conversation

I always figured that I was the silent type. Yet perhaps I was wrong because I once acted on impulse and chimed in when I heard some kindergartners compare the lunch their mothers made

"T will prepare my baby the best lunch after it's born, just like your mothers do."

It was my wish for the future as well as a wish of mine that had never been realized in the past

No matter what my role in real life was, the only thing I could truly relate to was my baby's perspective

Cinder moved closer to me, hugged me again, and patted me on the back, finally making me feel warmth and comfort. "I get it, Olive, and I'm sure you'd be a wonderful mother. But I can also see what Aaron is scared of. In fact, I'm as scared as he is. Everyone who loves you is afraid of losing you."

We were back to the same subject at last. I wasn't surprised, yet still, I couldn't help avoiding my eyes

I thought Cinder had finally decided to help Aaron persuade me to give up the baby, but as I

was trying to avoid the subject by staying silent, she spoke again

"But I agree with you, Olive. This may be the only chance to lift you out of the depths of the grievances of your childhood. If you give up the baby just like that, it will become a regret in your heart forever, and you will never be able to reconcile with yourself."

Cinder's words almost made my eyesfilledwithtears again

These days, when Aaron and even Charlotte learned of the difficult choice I was facing, they firmly persuaded me to prioritize my health

Neither of them realized that there was something more than mere physical issues

One's troubling mind needed to be cured as well

Cinder was the only one who didn't put me and my baby on opposite sides

"But you have to promise me one thing. You're never allowed to push the limits of your body. I don't care how much you want to show your baby what a dedicated mother you are. In the next two weeks, 1f you hide any symptoms of discomfort while waiting for the results, I will personally put you on the abortion table, even if it means I have to kidnap you."

Cinder rubbed my head hard and sounded too serious to be joking. I knew she wasn't joking, and though her actions were far from tender, I still felt so warm deep down

Just as I looked up to say something, the ward door was suddenly pushed open. We both looked over at the same time and saw the person who walked in silently. It was my biological

mother, Kristy, who had not appeared for a long time