Novel Square
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The Scar It Left Klay's
POV
I was intently watching Kelly lying on the sun lounger. She's wearing sunglasses but from the corner, I could see her eyes. It was empty and sad. She's always aggressive whenever I try to talk to her about forgiveness but her eyes were always the opposite. It was lifeless
and angry.
"Sir, the doctor isn't finished yet..."
I clenched my jaws and ignored my then who tried to stop me. I pulled myself up, enduring the pain of my wound as I decided to approach Kelly.
I stood beside the sun lounger and stared at her face. She's under the shade of an umbrella, but the sun is still so hot and her skin might get burned.
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"I can put some sunblock on you," I said as I glanced at the sunblock beside her.
She didn't say anything. She just grabbed her orange juice and sipped on it without throwing a single glance at me. She completely ignored me. Like a wind, easily ignored when calm but will be paid attention when aggressive,
I feel miserable too. Keeping her here while she's treating me like this isn't easy. I want to make up for my mistakes. I want to earn her trust again. I fcking want to be with her again because those months with her ...I feel so alive and I'm serious when I said she's the only one who can keep me sane because I lost my mind in the past five years without her.
I clenched my jaws and sucked my breath. One of my men brought a sun lounger for me and as soon as 1 sat on it, Kelly pulled herself up and walked towards the sea.
Squeezing my eyes closed, I balled my fists. I can't endure this anymore but if I force her she'll hate me
even more.
I looked at the sea and watched her swimming. I stayed for almost 15 minutes but she didn't come back I guess she won't come out of the water if I stay here. So I decided to leave. As I walked away, I looked back and saw her walking back to the sun lounger. A bitter smile crept on my lips. I will never give up even if you do this everyday, Kelly. Never!
***Kelly's POV
I decided to cook, unable to bear the sadness and boredom. I had to scare off the chef who tried to stop me. I'm alone here in the kitchen and while I'm cutting some meat, I remembered my daughter again.
Swallowing hard, I tried to get her off of my mind. I'm so worried about her. I'm dying to see her again. I don't think I'd last a week without seeing my daughter. I'd go crazy.
I continued cutting meat until I accidentally hurt myself because I was distracted and frustrated with what's happening in my life.
*Kelly!"
Tears streamed down my face not because of the pain of the wound but because I couldn't bear the sadness and anger anymore. Klay held my hand and tried to pull me towards the sink to wash my wound when I angrily pushed him away and glared at him.
He shook his head as his eyes softened and darted at my bleeding finger. "You're bleeding..."
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I walked towards the sink and washed my finger. The bleeding hasn't stopped yet but I don't care. This blood is nothing compared to the hellish life I've been through. "Kelly, let me help you-"
7 don't need your help." I growled at him as I shot him cold glares..
He swallowed hard and took a deep breath. "The bleeding won't stop-"
"I can see it," I cut him off again. "I'm not blind."
T'll just get the first aid-"
"I SAID I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP!"
He wasn't shocked but he froze in his place because of my shout. He looked at me with pain visible in his eyes but I just looked at him coldly.
I turned my back on him and angrily grabbed the first aid box. I sat on the stool and opened the box but he attempted to help so I pulled myself up and attempted to leave when he immediately stepped back, raising his arms "I-I won't...interfere anymore."
I gritted my teeth and sat on the stool again. I cleaned the wound and put a wound plaster before! put the first aid box back. I proceeded to do what I'm doing before I hurt my finger. Klay didn't leave but he was standing by the kitchen entrance, watching me intently. "I-I never intended to hurt you..."
I didn't move. I don't care. He hurt me eventually and I won't forgive him.
"I admit I wanted to use you but my feelings for you intensified....I refuse to use you anymore. I want you.. to love me...and see me as a man you can trust. because you made me realize so many things in life. You made me feel loved. You taught me how love really works..
I opened the refrigerator and grabbed some vegetables.
"-I don't wanna hurt you, Kelly. God knows..."
I angrily dropped the knife and held onto the counter. A sarcastic smile plastered on my lips as I stared at the vegetables in front of my eyes.
"God..." I laughed without humor....knows?"
Slow y, I lifted my face and looked him in the eyes. "You still think you have the right to say that word after what you've done?"
He looked down, guilty. "I want a second chance...with you."
"You want a second chance? Guess what? You don't deserve a second chance."
He looked at me again. His eyes were begging. I don't care. Even if he cries blood, I won't care. If he wants a second chance, he could do this without taking me away from the person I dearly loved. He separated me from my daughter and he wants a second chance? "What do I need to do to deserve it?"
I looked down and started cutting vegetables, ignoring him again. I felt him walking towards me but I didn't throw him a single glance.
"Tell me what should I do, Kelly. Tell me how I can make you forgive me. Tell me how I can make you love me again..."
The desperation in his voice was very audible. I want to forgive. I don't wanna live in hatred either. I badly want to just forget everything that happened but my heart couldn't let it slide. I was heavily wounded and I couldn't forget the fear, the desperation and pain that night I ran away from him...for my baby's life.
The sacrifices, the hard life I've been through..hiding from him. I couldn't forget it. It's carved in my heart and it couldn't be erased anymore. "Kelly, tell me what I should do..."
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"Die," I said lifelessly and looked him in the eyes with so much hatred. "Who knows? I might forgive you if
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you die."