Beautiful in pain

The big gate opened quite wide, showing a man who now looked fit with a body that looked a little bulky coming out of it. His smile was evident when he saw the two people who were now waiting for him not far from the gate he had just passed. The small bag he was carrying was repaired when he saw one person coming at him.Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

“Milk!” a boy ran fast and immediately jumped into the arms of an adult man who was now holding him in a warm embrace, the figure of an adult man was eagerly waiting for these moments.

“Milk! I’m so glad you’re out! Remember, play with me often!”

“I’m also very happy to see you Andy, my little hero, of course I will take you to play whenever you want.” Said Adriel pinching Andy’s cheek which was quite thick, and it made Adriel very excited.

Yes, he is Adriel who just got out of prison. His prison term was reduced due to being a well-behaved prisoner, moreover, the case was retrial if one of the victims died. An old wound that is quite painful. Meanwhile, from that case, Vania’s confinement period increased, because one of the victims who died because of her, it was counted in a murder case, not just an ordinary assault case.

“I’m not a little hero! I’m a big boy! I can take good care of papa!” Little Andy protested, puffing his cheeks in annoyance.

“All right, you’re a big whiz. I was wrong. Now let’s meet your papa.”

Andy, who was in Adriel’s arms just nodded and tightened his grip on Adriel’s neck, they both walked towards Hana who was now smiling at them both.

“You look very healthy, Adriel.” greet Hana first.

Adriel lowered Andy from his arms because the little boy whined to get into the car.

“Hmmm I’m very healthy, you can see for yourself. All I do in there is sleep, eat, pray, and do small activities-then, how about you? You and Mama?” Adriel asked with the hand he rubbed behind the back of the neck. It’s a little awkward.

“Healthy, the shop that we built with the support of mom and dad is also running stable. I can live safely with mae, even though mommy insists that we stay at home.”

“Why don’t you want to just stay there?”

Hana shook her head.

“No, I think it’s too difficult. After all mom and dad can come occasionally to see Andy, after all Andy is still their grandson, never mind. Now let’s go home, before that we go somewhere first.”

Adriel nodded.

“Yeah you’re right, I’ve missed him a lot too. I need to see him.” Adriel rubbed Hana’s brown mane, Hana looked more beautiful, he thought.

Hana, Adriel, and Andy have now arrived at a place that holds wounds that they both don’t want to remember anymore. But this place is reminiscent of how someone used to be in their life.

Burial.

With the flowers Hana brought, they arrived at a tombstone with David’s name on it. Adriel crouched down with his right hand touching the mound of earth in front of him.

“How are you there David? It’s your brother. Sorry I just got to meet you.” Adriel smiled even though his heart wasn’t like that, the incident when David was rushed that day he still remembers very well.

“I just got out of prison, but I don’t think the punishment was worth what happened to you. It was all my fault, I’m sorry. Even though your last moments couldn’t see you and were not by your side at that time, once again I apologize .” Adriel clasped his hands together, he prayed that David would be happy and placed in the most beautiful place.

“I am done”

Hana nodded.

“Pa, Andy wants to go to the bathroom.” Said the little boy pulling up the shirt worn by Hana.

“Let me carry it.” Adriel immediately carried Andy and took him to the toilet provided there.

Hana looked down at the name on the tombstone. He put the flower he was carrying on the mound under it.

“This year I’m coming again, don’t worry David. I’ve let go of everything, I don’t blame myself anymore. What’s more, my mild depression has been cured. Your best friend Renjun, I’m sorry. Now he has become my best friend maybe. Be fine there, I promise I won’t have any more suicidal intentions.” Hana squatted down and stroked the white stone, he smiled a little.

“I love you , David”

Side of Adriel.

Adriel’s steps stopped.

His heart throbbed in pain, every word that came out of Hana’s lips was very clear to him. It turned out that all this time Hana had loved David, it was only right that his love was always rejected. But what can you do, Hana is not his wife now.

Ending life? It made Adriel feel even more guilty, so Hana had been suffering from mild depression all this time. Why didn’t anyone tell him about it.

“Milk, why did you stop?”

“It’s okay, let your papa talk to someone special to him first. We’ll wait here for a while.”

He looked at Hana, who was now just silently staring at the white gravestone that stood upright without any movement until Hana returned to a standing position. Maybe Hana is done.

And that’s when Adriel dared to approach.

“Are you done? We’d better go home now.” Adriel asked Hana.

“Yeah I’m done, that’s a great idea. Mommy and daddy must be waiting for you.”

Hana took Andy’s wrist and led him away from the cemetery area to a car parked not far away.

Adriel smirked. He looked at Hana and Andy from behind with slow steps.

He stopped for a moment. He looked behind him right where David was lying on the ground.

“David, I’m sorry. I love someone who loves you. This time let me take it from you, i promised. I will take good care of Hana and Andy, don’t worry. And sorry, I will make Hana look at me. Not at me. Your way again.” He said slowly then continued his journey to catch up with Hana and Andy.

In the end, this is really beautiful suffering. Where everything is fine in its place. It’s just that, every love that is told no one can get it in its entirety.

David who had to leave his love forever.

Hana who was abandoned by his loved ones and left only a memory.

And Adriel who has to accept the fact that his love is only one sided just because he was too late to realize it.

All have the same pain, only. Different in feeling. Love, where one word is so beautiful to hear but with a thousand sufferings in it. Truly, it is a very beautiful suffering to feel.

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