CHAPTER 72
AUDREY’S POV
When I opened my eyes, it was night already, and I figured it’d be time for dinner soon. Little Logan hadn’t shown up today, so I assumed he probably spent the day with my mate.
My mate. I couldn’t help but think about all that had happened this morning, while I proceeded to the bathroom for a bath. Were my actions right? Was I right to push him away? This was the first time he was trying to be intimate with me since I returned, and I had arrogantly pushed him away.
But still, he had no right addressing me in such a degrading manner. And why was he even trying to touch me, when Heather was still in the picture? I suddenly felt so angry all over again, and hurriedly finished up my business in the bathroom. I stepped out and went through my hygiene routine, applying so much moisturizer. It was a chilly weather, and it seemed like it may probably rain tonight.
Putting on my simple black gown that stopped mid thigh, I decided to let my hair fall freely tonight. Part of the protective steps against the chilly weather.
‘Audreeeeyyyyy’. Layla mindlink, and I released a small smile. ‘Ready for dinner?’ She asked.
‘Yes. Would be down in a bit’. I replied before shutting off my mindlink.
Just as I was about making my way out of my room, I heard a knock on the door. Thinking it was probably Emily, I opened the door immediately. I was surprised to see who it actually was at the door. Ares?
“Ares.” I managed a small smile. “How….. how did you know my room?”
“Good evening, beautiful.” He just grinned.
“Good evening. Forgive my manners.” I chuckled.
“I came here…” He stepped into my room. “With hopes of accompanying you to dinner.” Why did that sound really off, in a way? Ares was a friend, right?
“Uhh….” I released a sigh. “I didn’t know that was a thing during general dinners.” I chuckled nervously.
“Well, if you prefer a private dinner, I would be most happy to cater to your wishes.” He gave a funny bow.
“No, not that. I just….”
“I really like you Audrey.” He cut me short, making my eyes slightly widen in shock and discomfort. “I like your personality. You can hold a good conversation, make me laugh….. You’re fucking strong, and that turns me on a lot.” He chuckled lazily.
“Ares, you realize that I have a mate, right?”
“But he isn’t ready to acknowledge you, and I can’t fathom why. He has a girlfriend, doesn’t he?” His words left me feeling very embarrassed, even if I knew that wasn’t his intention.
“I’m sorry Ares, but I’d stick with him that way. Thank you for thinking me interesting enough, to be worthy of your attention.” I honestly replied. I tried to walk out, when he gently pulled me back to him, and planted a chaste kiss on my lips. My wolf was repulsed, so I pushed him away.
“Audrey, please give it a chance.” He whispered, before pulling me to himself once more and kissing me. My head was reeling with so many thoughts, but the predominant one was how much I didn’t like the feel of his lips on mine.
It was pathetic, but I preferred the lips of the one who didn’t want or respect me. Just as I thought to push him away again, I heard a thud, indicating we had company. With so much fear within, I pushed him away, and looked behind to see…
Oh no. It was Logan! I felt my heartbeat accelerate rapidly, as my eyes fell on the flower on the flower. Had he brought that for…. me?
Oh my goddess, my goddess, my goddess!! This wasn’t what it looked like.
“Logan.” I called, but he a gave a bitter smile and walked away.
I looked up at Ares, not knowing what to say to him, for the fear of sounding rude.
“Leave my room please.” I pointed at the door, and seeing the problem he had just caused, he left without another word.
I spent the next five minutes, pacing my bedroom and trying my hardest not to cry.
‘What do we do now?!’ My wolf cried in my head, and I convinced myself to be calm. He had brought me flowers right? That meant something. I mean, if he wanted to just apologize, he wouldn’t bother coming with flowers.
I was right, wasn’t I?
Okay. What I’d just do is go to the dinning room, sit down and eat like nothing happened, then try to have a decent talk with him after that. It was just a kiss, and I didn’t even like it one bit! All that had been on my mind was him!
Okay, that was what I would do. Audrey, put yourself together.
I made my way out of my room, releasing hot air from my mouth more than 5 times, while on my way to the dinning room.
When I got there, I looked around and was surprised to see that the seat beside Logan was empty. That was unusual.
‘Come sit with me, love’. Denver’s voice filtered through my mind, and my eyes searched for him on the table. When we finally locked gazes, I slowly shook my head at him.
‘I’m sorry, Denver. But I may have messed things up unknowingly. I’m hoping to fix it’.
He gave me a confused look as I made my way to sit beside Logan, who didn’t spare me as much as a glance. Oh, boy!Property © of NôvelDrama.Org.
I wasn’t deterred though, and his composure made me believe he wasn’t going to blow things out of proportion. Layla, Liam, and king Xavier openly looked between Logan and I, and I couldn’t really tell what they were thinking. Had Logan told them anything already? Were they going to believe my explanations this time?
Food was served a couple of minutes later, and we all started eating. Up until now, Logan hadn’t looked at me.
‘I’m sorry’. I mindlinked him, but he remained silent at me. ‘It’s not really as it seems’. I tried once more, but was replied with the same silence. I was fucked!
I tried not to let it all get to me, and finished eating my meal. When I noticed he was done too, I put my hand underneath the table, and placed it on top of his. The height of aggression he had used to hit off my hand, made it hit my chest so hard, making the others pin their gaze on us. Ohhhh, this was just what I was avoiding.
‘And look at me thinking I was wrong with my words this morning.’ His words filtered through my mindlink, and I couldn’t fight off the tears that threatened to fall from my eyes. I knew there was no holding it back. It was gonna fall. But I wasn’t going to let everyone see me this way.
Immediately, I stood from my seat and ran off, not sure where I was headed. I just wanted to cry and vent a little. I rushed out through the main entrance, and ran towards the garden. Just then, the skies angrily released a heavy downpour, soaking me instantly.
I didn’t care, as I kept running deeper into the garden, the water making the earth get muddy.
Soon, I felt someone else running behind me, and tried to increase my pace. I wanted to just shift into my wolf form and disappear for a moment, but I was going to tear my clothes in the process.
“Audrey!!” I heard him call out to me, but I didn’t stop running. He also didn’t stop chasing after me until he grabbed me by the arm, causing me to halt.
“What do you want?!” I cried out, happy that the rain effortlessly hid my tears.
He just stood there, looking at me in pure annoyance and equally angered me.
“Just leave me alone, you have done enough! You keep breaking my…”
“That is what I want!” He yelled back in my face. “To break you so much that there’s nothing left of you!” The heavy rain almost made our voices inaudible.
“Let me go!!” I tried to pull away from his hold, but he tightened it the more.
“I want to so badly break you!” He repeated, breathing so roughly. “I want to break you…” He roughly pulled me against himself, and we locked eyes for a moment.
The next thing I knew, we were tongue tied and kissing each other so passionately. I tried to push him away, but his intentional hold on me, made me change my mind.
Soon, we were falling to the muddy ground, and we didn’t even mind. All that had been on my mind, was the possibility of getting closer to him. I felt his lips on my neck, and I released a wanton sigh.
“I hate myself for wanting you so badly.” He whispered into my ears, and I tightened my legs around his waist, my gown hiking up in the process.
“I hate myself for wanting you even when you hurt me.” I muttered, more tears seeping from my eyes as we kissed each other roughly.
After a while, he tugged against my gown, and I found myself hurriedly taking it off, same time he took of his shirt and pants. He settled in between my legs again, and latched his tongue on my right nipple. At this point, the rain had gotten heavier, slapping our bodies so brutally. But that was the least of our problems. Our bodies were soaked in the mud, but it also didn’t matter
I felt his hand roughly grope my other breast, making me release a whimper.
After seducing me wickedly for the next couple of minutes, he finally readjusted his weight on top of me, and properly settled in between my thighs. Without any heads up, he drove wildly into me, and I felt my inner lips path painfully, after 5 years of not being touched. Ohhhh, I missed that feeling of being so full! Soon, the discomfort disappeared, and pleasure replaced it.
“Ahhh!!!” I moaned out loudly as he began to pound into me, making tears of pleasure pour out of my eyes. My entire body was a whole mood, sparks all over. Everywhere his hand touched, it left an electrifying sensation that further pushed me to the cliff.
“Faster!!” I cried, hoping he’d increase his pace. He did, and I felt like I was probably going to die from the excessive pleasure.
“Ohhh… fuck!” He groaned into my ear, thrusting so deeply inside me that I feared he must have rearranged my insides. Goddess, I didn’t want this to end. I leaned up to kiss him and he dominated the kiss aggressively. I choked into his mouth, the more he pounded against me.
Soon I started to feel myself reaching the peak, and his pace suddenly became too fast to keep up with.
“Arrrggh!!” “Ahhhh!!” We moaned out together, as the excitement got unbearable. I felt my walls tightening around his length, before finally coming undone. He released a loud grunt, before spilling his seed inside me and falling beside me. We both panted so fast, still trying to clear our heads from the unbelievable Euphoria.
Just as if the skies had gotten their release the same time as us, the rain gradually reduced, until just light drizzles fell on our bodies. My emotions were everywhere, and couldn’t just hold my next words in.
“I love you.” I turned to him, but he had a blank expression.
“I will marry Heather.” He suddenly said, then stood up from the ground and started putting on his clothes. What??!
I couldn’t explain the level of pain I felt within. So what did we just share now? Did that mean nothing to him?
“I am so stupid.” I muttered as fresh tears made their way down my cheeks. “Sooo stupid.” I stood up from the muddy floor.
“Actually, I am the stupid one.” He chuckled dryly, leaving a bitter taste on my tongue. “Was ready to start chasing after you like a lost puppy again, when it really wasn’t worth it.”
“I have had enough of you degrading insults, you hatred, your anger, your bitterness towards me!” I yelled out, not able to hold it in anymore as more tears poured down my eyes. “I have tried my best all these years, to build a new life for myself! To erase the way you made people see me for years….”
“Ohhh, I made them?!!” He yelled in my face “You did! You fucking did!! Even after I gave you my heart and all the love I had within. What did you do?? You slept with my brother and turned me into a shell of myself!!”
“No!! You turned me into a shell of myself!!” I shot back at him, hurriedly throwing on my gown in self disgust.
“I lost my entire family Logan, but you only made my pain worse! I loved you! I fucking loved you!!!” I cried harder. “Enough to not care if my refusal to be a part of their plans, put my parents in danger! All that was important to me, was you!!” I yelled in his face. “Sebastian had raped me and I told you!!” I cried harder. “I told you!! And what did you do? You marked me and then rejected me! You deserted me when I needed you the most! You made me suffer for years, alone! Constantly feeling the pain of your intimacies with other women! You branded me as a cheat and adulterer!”
“For five years, I never stopped praying for you! I kept hoping you’d come back for me. That you would have forgiven me, despite the fact that I never really did you wrong! The goddess had somewhat shown me mercy and brought you back to me, but what did I get? Your disrespect and hatred!” I aggressively cleaned my tears with the back of my palm as more tears dropped. He looked at me with a confused and somewhat scared expression, but I could care less. I was so done with him. With all of these! “It is fine for you to kiss Heather and enjoy it! But I am the harlot because a man who genuinely likes me, kissed me without my consent?”
“You know…. I had initially thought this was my second chance, but I only just realized it was yours! It was your second chance to mend my heart after violently breaking it, but congratulations! You further shattered it to pieces.” I laughed hysterically. “And you know what hurts the most?” I asked rhetorically, a sad smile on my face. “All these years, you hated and punished me for something that I never really did. I was the victim, but you couldn’t even believe me, yet you claimed to love me.” His eyes widened slightly, and I shook my head in disbelief.
“Audrey….” He hurriedly began, fear evident in his eyes.
“Save it.” I put my hand up. “After this war is over, I would reject you, King Logan. And you can have your freedom to marry your Heather. I’m done!”
“No, Audrey. Please I didn’t mean what I said!” He rushed out and tried to hold me, but I swatted his hand away.
“Don’t you ever touch me again. I… I hate you.” I said, before walking away and leaving him in shock.