CHAPTER 20
I haven’t seen Gideon for three days now, he has refused to pick my calls, he didn’t even answer Estelle’s own when I had tried to call him with her phone. I haven’t also seen Stephan around, I fear that Gideon might have fired him, I need to explain to Gideon that Stephan did nothing, I was the one that came onto him, I will feel terribly guilty if Stephan lost his job because of me. I decided that if Gideon did fire him, I would do anything to try and get Stephan his job back, he really was a good man, at the moment I hated myself for repaying him such with the kindness he has shown me.
I also hated myself for the kiss, it was barely even a kiss, just a tiny peck and I wasn’t thinking straight. I wish I could blame it on being drunk, except I wasn’t drunk, I haven’t even tasted alcohol for months now. I don’t know if Gideon would still like to go on with the wedding, if he decides not to go on with it, I won’t argue.
I needed to speak to someone, and not just anyone, someone who would help me feel better. I thought of calling Lily, she always knew what to say in every situation, but I felt too ashamed, I knew Lily wouldn’t judge me, but still. I need to go see my mother, hear her speak and not just over the phone, she would know what to say.
I went up to my room to pack few clothes, I could spend the night there. I put in a my pajamas, two baggy jeans and extra large shirts, anything big enough to hide my growing bulge. My father will probably think I have just put on a little weight. It will be wise to phone my mum first, let her know I was coming.
“Mum, are you home?” I spoke into the phone as I waved down a Taxi.© 2024 Nôv/el/Dram/a.Org.
“Yeah, why do you ask? You coming over?”
“Yeah, I’ve to go now, see ya.”
“OK.”
It was just two hour drive to my parents house, stepping my feet on thy familiar soil would forever bring nostalgia running. From the little swing, still out on the front porch where my siblings and I would always fight to get on, to my mother’s little garden, the little bell my father had put on just because my little sister said the little jingles reminded her of fairies. She once said she saw one, but then Raven has always had a wild imagination.
“Emily!” My mum called, she was already standing out by the door, an apron wrapped around her, she probably saw me from the kitchen window, which gave way to the front yard.
“Mum!” I broke out into a small run, stopping before her to hug her. “Oh, it’s been so long.”
“So long?” she pulled back from the hug. “Girl, weren’t you here the other day with that handsome man of yours?” My parents had taken a liking to Gideon, and I wouldn’t blame them, he had found a way to charm his way through their already soft heart. My mum can be strict, but she was probably the nicest woman you will ever come across.
“Is Dad home?” I asked as I stepped in, taking a big sniff, I could already smell her special meatball sauce. “Oh, I came right on time. I’m starving.”
“Your father isn’t home, he’s at the office,” she said locking for doors as she stepped into after me. “Is something wrong?” she asked as soon as she turned to face me. “You don’t look happy.”
“What?” I asked like I didn’t just hear what she said.
“Is something wrong?”
“W-What do you mean?” I cursed at the tremble in my voice.
“Well, you were here just the other day and it’s not like I don’t want to see my daughter, but it’s unlike you to just visit home again. Is it the wedding, work or-” she took a pause, “the baby?”
“I did something bad and now Gideon is angry with me, I haven’t seen him for days now.”
“Oh Emily, what did you do?” she asked softly. “It couldn’t have been that bad?”
“I kissed someone mum and Gideon-Gideon saw. He’s angry and he left the house, I haven’t seen him for days.” I didn’t know when the tears started to fall till my mother came over to wipe my cheeks clean.
“What’s with the tears honey?” she asked concerned. “Is things that bad? Come sit down, I’ll get you a cup of tea while you tell me everything.”
“OK.”
Minutes later, I sat with my mother beside me, I had just finished relaying the whole story.
“Well honey, I’m sure he will be back soon. This Stephan guy you don’t have feelings for him right?”
“Of course not, I’ve never even thought of him in that way. It’s all that Ciara fault, she caused everything.”
“Now,” My mum shook her head. “You are my daughter and I love you, but this is partly your fault. Ciara might have pushed you, but you were the one who handled things your way, she didn’t force you to kiss another guy did she?”
“No,” I mumbled honestly.
“This girl you told me about sounds exactly like the type that would love to wreck happy homes, even homes that haven’t been completely built like yours, it’s your job not to let her get to you.”
“I understand ma, but Gideon isn’t making it easy for me, to him she means no harm, a complete angel, she acts like she genuinely cares for him when he’s around when all she does is try to ruin his relationships.”
“Well, she should expect a huge change now that you’re around, I’ve seen the way that man looks at you, I can see he genuinely cares for you, you also have that silly smile on your face when you look at him-”
“Yeah, but we’re getting a divorce after the baby, you know this already mum. It’s not like it’s a forever marriage because I do want to spend the rest of my life with someone who genuinely loves me.”
“What you two decide to do after the baby is up to you, but I do hope you have a happy marriage, I do pray you guys get along good and this marriage last for a very long time.”
I retired to my bedroom early that night, I just needed a good eight to ten hours sleep to be able to think well again, hopefully things get better tomorrow.